tinking: *sobs*

life have taken its best toll on me.. again. i hate life. its cruel. towards me at least. yeah. i feel so crappy and shitty rite now. fuck. and my neighbour dog have to top my distress moment with its YAKKING. *shoots dog* die bitch die.

yeah got ROBBED and ASSAULTED todae. in broad day lite i got the taste of feeling *lost* i jus din noe wad to do. i jus got myself up. terminate my number and ring up the bastard in blue. Cops. haffta turn up to them in the end oso. got my statement down. issued a check up appointment. haiz. wad a life. wad a day. all FUCKED UP. pushing me back to my suicidal state.

bumped into Nadia. a friend indeed is a friend in need. *hugs* she is there with me through out. with the rest of the peeps too. tanks a lot for comforting and assuring me. never felt better. hang out with them before going home feeling all shitty and robbed. *still hurting from the punches*

got home kirin was there too. comforted me. i felt so like a small sis to her eventho im a year older. she is always there too. besides the regular basis of Nadia being there by my side. she is too. i look up to her as a big sis cause she always watching out and making sure im safe and not hurt. cried out my shits todae at her. *huggies* and best.. no one calls me Baby except her.. *smiles*

gonna go 7-11 wit mom now. gonna drown all my sorrow.

Pls god if u read me.. pls i dun ask much jus i wanna pray tat the guy get caught and brought to justice. please. tis is my onli hope. tankew.

Specials Tanks + hugs and kisses to:

Nadia
Typhoon
Anis
Ayie
Kirin
Bob Blurr
Said
Mim

tanks for being there wen i need sumone. appreciates it. may god bless u kind peeps.

Carve your wrist and spell out my name D.E.V.I.L

Y 10/29/2004 10:25:00 PM