Saturday, October 16, 2004
why he never call me. said he will. promised me he will. but phone was silent all thru the nite. till the onli sound was my sister snoring away. snore of hardwork in the day. *giggles*
heaty heaty argument in the net. whoa. the tension was like 99% close to boiling point. the much hatred was finally let off. leaving more hatred for each other. it aint suppose to be tis way. where's the one love? where's the get over it motto? wads happening. make love not war. still stuck in between. the lady seeking me advises. the mister telling me that he cant be bothered. im lost. as i sae cut me pls.. anione?
to drown my sorrow of wad's happening with two of my loved ones. he smsed me. at last sayin he's awake. i made the move first. am i drifting back into square one. got loved. got hurt. got dumped. i dun wanna it to be tat way. dammit. no way. not meeting him again todae. cause plans aren't working the proper way. we jus got no time for each other. well i do. he dont.
gonna go auntie house todae. prolly having the meals at her crib. been sometime since ive been there. so yeah prolly going there. i pray that tomoro will be a day out with my by. i miss him. he noes that. he told me does too. but nutin can be done. we rarely tok to. he busy feeling tired and dozing off. LoLx. being tough is wad im doing.
Argh wanna paint my shoes three symbolic colours of rasta. dammit. had an overview of it. the base black. and then stripes of yellow green red. awww awesome. asking Mon for help. Pwease pwease. hope he can.
fuck my life. im fasting and shits have to happen.
i love living me. i love being me.
Carve ur wrist and spell out my name D.E.V.I.L
Y 10/16/2004 01:50:00 PM
