the broken teen.

well just got back yesterday from a chalet by a friend. me and nad went over.laughed so hard in the bus.. at the interchange.. making fun of everything onli to realise tat was my last luff of happiness... damn.
onli those around me noes wad actually happens...(onli Nad arh..and shidada cause i told her)... suffering from regrets...guilt... and loss. but then i tried to put tings back to its normal way..but as shidada said yesterdae "everything's not gonna be the same" yeah and tats the truth.. but.. i reallly dunno wad to do..

starting work soon and mom make me study my whole practises back. making me read every pointers. damn. she wasnt like tis wen i was taking my real EXAMS haha. now starting work then giving me all this pressure. she terbalik lar. and she took away my hp as she ask me to use home phone for three days. so yeah dumb people hu call me and cant get thru..pls call my home. and then she prohibited me from surfing and playing the net for the next three days too...its suppose to be "StuDY day" for me. lame lar but wad to do.. she is my mom.

not sure going to platform 5 or not. im cashless. see how lar.. not confirm.. mebe buy at the door oso can rite. see how lar.. its not always i getta see my friend performing on stage. so might go.. gotta dig out ten bucks man ARGH ARGH ARGH ...so yeah mite be mite not.. aniwaes good luck to the two crews. *smiles*

so tired and sleepy now. been away for a day so yeah missed my bed so much. went to see Bapok with Nad early morning. haha. she ah.. was glueing her eyes on every trans tat passed by us. exciting seh. but then gorgeous like hell arh some of them. dressed in soooo short lar the skirt. if got flood oso they wont get wet..dun worry.. haha and some in like small pieces of clothes. damn. we watched as the nite of the "bapok changi" lured into the streets.. sitting by the road.. waiting for their customers. some were dropped by their clients.. guess they already got the cash and had fun.. and still waiting for another customer.. haha old.. young.. chinese.. all kinda races.. taxi drivers!! haha. fun fun fun before we head back and went to sleep!

how much ive learned tat im such a gullible lil freak..believing every single ting people say and in the end getting hurt myself. tis year i crumbled more than ive crumbled in the past years. accidents and accident back to back occured to me. shall i cry...well i do everytime but it still happens.. so much i wanna it to change.. i wan some happiness in my life and my days. i dun wanna have any other incidents to occur. its bringing me down day by day. and i wanna start work ASAP... so i can forget about everitin and mebe start a new life as a working lady. putting mind off from all tis tings.. i hope i have a brighter day..
....and tats wen i will finally smile.

xx[ karma: wad goes around comes around ]xx

Y 1/18/2005 09:38:00 AM