what if...

so i just decided to blog. blog shit? mebe? jus bear with me.
been doing boring stuffs. help find long lost library books that yet to be return. i counted how many circles on my skirt. simple maths calculation mentally. make faces in the mirror. on-off my cellphone. yeah. i have no life. i was bored.
so i went down to Dome half-heartedly. in the bus i looked out..tings going so fast by me and all i did was sit yet tings past by. i looked at the wet grass patch. wet road. people walking. talking. it hurts how i jus wish i can smile with no problems. jus sit and do notink. free-ing my mind. but too bad. i cant.
reached Dome. blood. everytin went blurred. i cant see him. at the state he is in. i started to cry. dunno it turned out to be tat bad. i jus wish to hold him but i cant. i cried. im a useless bitch. so cried my self. he gave me a kiss. and tings took a turn. i tried to be with him throughout the procedure. the endurance he puts in. the way he held me tite wen he's in pain. why we have to go through all tis? *sigh* unfairness sets in.
i wanna personally tank all the people involve todae. eventhough it was a mess.. everyone chips in. Izzati. Tsun. Taufik. Ayie. Wan Birdy. and all. i jus dunno how to tank all of u. *tankew*
Ati..ure da best!
maybe someday the sun will shine on us.
maybe someday we will laugh those memories away.
maybe someday the light jus shine and everytin stopped.
maybe someday a time will come tat i will smile without having to frown again?
maybe....?
till then i will smile.. my heart still cries.

shida: i miss u gal. tanks for toking to me. i *heart* u

why issit hard for u to realise ure hurting me?

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Y 10/22/2005 03:05:00 AM