i love Fuad Rahman. da real one k. not the wanna-be. haa. *wink*

i finish my 3 nites. minus one so 2 nites. and im on my off day! wee. i like. so tired. i dunno why ive been so letargic this past few days.. hmm.

departures are never easy. indeed. first Nisak gonna leave us. then now a friend that i've been relying on. it hurts but not sad. noting to be sad about. in the end they still gotta leave. sigh. wadever it is.. a remembrance and memories will always stay. *muaks* u both kids~ loves~

so he told me that he felt that everytin is not rite. i wish i cud jus go there in front of him and give him a BIG FUCKING TITE SLAP. haa. he said ive not loved him as much as i did before. and ive been ignoring him all tis while. haa. BF needs attention too! argh. but i still love him. he's doing everytin now to see me smile.every minute pass by and i tink of him. every second pass by and i care for him. every day pass by and i miss him. hee. i *heart* u many many sia!
he will always be my "Fuad Rahman" wuaha.

to Razil : im sorry that i told u everytin but u seem so lost. im glad u were strong to forgive her. she is confused and im glad u took it in an orderly manner. ure funny wen u PANIC. u sound like ustaz. haa. im happy for both of u.

to Shidada: my look-like-a-boy sweet. u made ur choice then u change it again and made the final choice. he's good to all of us. jus tat remember NEVER run away from ur problems. he can listen. he told me that. all u gotta do is share. he loves u. i can see that after yesterday but as much as he nurture u.. u gotta nurture him to be part of ur life too.
im happy as long ure happy. like i told u.. nurara will always be there for Shidada. same goes to Nadz. Pharz. Nis. everyone k. muax. hope ure happy!

i cant wait to meet monster. we gonna send Cik Miah cat to the vet tomoro! wee. its VET DAY. woot woot. hee. mebe catch Exorcism of Emily Rose? mebe? but i dun wanna go with Monster. he is more timid then me! he threw pop corns at me! haiz. pening. wuaha.

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i heart u.
nadz.
pharz.
niz.
shidaz.
nuraz.
ddz.
...wee

Y 11/14/2005 11:34:00 PM