i deleted my previous entry.
mood : so depress i can kill myself jus by biting on my wrist.
tats was before.
now i feel so.. happy. yey -_-''.



hee i made that.
HE CALLED. yey. *jumps around together and joyously with fats and breast*
finally. and i cried. okie it sounds funny to see a big fat (but sweet and cute and semi pretty) girl crying... but TOUCHING OKIE. damn u people.

other half was like:
"dah ayang takmo nangis..dah shh shh k"
and i was like:
"BOOOHOO BOOHOO *sob sob* sniff sniff cough."
bullshit sia.

nvm la. over is over. meeting him early tomoro.
he wanna haf b'fast with me.
we love food. we love food. ahh.
then settling my bills everything.

i changed my skin...again after SOOO LONG.
i just want it to be bright. dull . simple and mundane.
....jus like me.
ahh a bliss.

other half. i miss u la. i deleted OUR blog cus.. dah ber-abuk siak.
i tink spider webs dah form pon..
hee. malas peh pasal...

eh i realise i dun have friends.
pathetic eh?
but i dun feel desperate to have one.
yes of course i got no one to tok to about tings besides other half.
HOW MANY TINGS can i actualli tok to him about?
but then again.. ive yet to feel so alone.
im naive la. tat's why its hard for me to get real true friends.
sometimes i see zai having two good girl friends.. its sad..
but after wad i went thru with friends..for friends.. those backstabbing.
those childish act..
i better be off alone.
i got my colleagues to take my mind off @ work. *smiles*
and i got other half. *hearts*

i kinda miss shida. cause wenever i listen to tamia song it reminds me of her.
haa. bleurgh.

a few more days. we turn 1..a big 1~


i love u ayangz.

Y 5/25/2006 01:37:00 AM