Friday, October 15, 2010

a dedication to you :
click on my song on the left.
and read the lyrics.


You're so cheap and this isn't like you
I can't get used to it now, It makes me dizzy, why
Who's breaking up with who
You're breaking up with me
Think it over before you say it, yeah

A guy that used to follow me around, a very decent guy
I let everything go for you alone
Who's breaking up with who
You're breaking up with me
Try living without me, yeah

Tonight of all times, why is it raining again
It makes me look so pitiful
[Minzy] Don't try to console me
Move this hand, we're strangers now

Don't worry about me and go away
I'll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I'd hang onto you
It's disgusting, don't misunderstand
I'll meet someone so much better
I'll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight

Just say what you gotta say
How can you be uncool to the very end?
Fiancé? Beyonce
I'm walkin' out of destiny
Not pitifully alone, but a glamorous solo
That's my way
I gave it my all, so I don't have regrets

Pretending like you're more sad
Pretending you're cool to the end
All you do is act a fool
You ain't shi.t without your crew
I don't have time, I gotta go
So long, good bye, adios
I don't want to see your ugly face again no more
Tonight of all times, why is it raining again
It makes me look so pitiful
Don't try to console me
Move this hand, we're strangers now

Don't worry about me and go away
I'll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I'd hang onto you
It's disgusting, don't misunderstand

I'll meet someone so much better
I'll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight

Go go away
Go away
Go away
Go away

[Bom] Don't worry about me and go away
I'll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I'd hang onto you
It's disgusting, don't misunderstand

I'll meet someone so much better
I'll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight

Y 10/15/2010 10:50:00 PM

Saturday, October 09, 2010

how do i start?
never really given much thought about how tough its gonna be starting.
well things are little bit on the downside now.. hmm.
is that alright for a start?
well the fact that i will be blogging about my disaster-ous lifestarting right about now..
please leave if you suddenly have the urge to stalk me
and stab me in the back with a samurai knife.
(^_^) arasso?
well ive done it. i let go something that ive always thought will last.
the thing that ive always dreamed about. the thing that i have put my very last faith in.
DDie. our 5 years story have finally come to an end.
i guess everything happens for a reason. which i still not sure what..
it cant possibly because i might end up marrying kim heechul instead right?
gosh if only that HAPPENS.
okay back to the right track..
i guess everything just collapse.
my ability to trust again. my ability to look into those eyes and say that i truly love him.
till now i still wonder why i made my decision. what drove me to that decision.
him? maybe..
till now i still have not really made myself clear to that dude why i did what i did..
but one for sure i know its really really CHINCHA tiring to be the only one giving.
its hard for me.
so my dear friend
everything i did in the past..i never regret it not even once.
i never regret the help i gave you.. the support i gave to you.. the faith i have in you..
the time i just sit around waiting for you call..eventhough you will not and ignore me for 3 days..
the time i jumped up and come out whenever you ask me to go out..
the time i wake up really early so not to be late our date only to realise you slept through..
i never regret every moment cause i made that choice.
but the only thing i regretted till now..is getting engaged to you.
cause after all this.. it hurts really bad.
to get back to my own two feet. to be going forward on my own.
to leave everything behind.
but i pulled through. and i hope u do too.
cause eventhough we had so much memories during our 5 years..
but i bet i will create more memories wonderfully in years to come.
so i hope u get the answers that you been waiting and asking me till now.
friends and family of course have been super supportive.
my bff's at work.
the crazy girls of shiela's.
my aunties.
my kuzzies.
my mom especially.
i love you mak. i do.
thanks for curing this painful months.
for loving me the same eventhough i know i did a lot of hurtful things.
for embracing me in your arm whenever i break down now and then.
and assuring me that i will always be ur beautiful daughter.
and of cos telling me i wont be anugly hag eventhough i dun get married.
-_-'' so comforting.
and oh who can forget my dearest
who played a very important part during the 3 hour ordeal of ending things.
chincha nomu nomu nomu chuwahae.
okay. thats enough of some crappy sappy love story that gone awfully wrong.
been travelling a whole lot now.
just came back from HongKong and Langkawi with friends.
now im left with my first ever winter trip to Seoul.
another 2 months.
PLS PLS PLS let it be my future husband be a hangul saram.
perangai kepala buntot seh.
people.. love sucks.. but once you got the strength to let go of that suckiness.
everything else is so sweet and lovely.
on this i shall leave this blog to rot ..not for long tho..
PLEASE can the kid next door stop playing her damn piano.
i swear if i hear another note of that irritating sound
i will throw my working shoe through you window.
at least get the note right for heaven sake.
with this.

Y 10/09/2010 11:12:00 AM

Saturday, May 15, 2010

as always SUPER JUNIOR never fails to impress. with their new looks. to their new hairstyles.

new body. full workout body seen by some members. haish.

Kim Heechul having many parts to sing is definitely a THUMBS UP for me.

till then...


Super Junior 2010:

Leetuk. Eunhyuk. Shindong. Heechul. Siwon. DongHae. Ryeowook. Sungmin. Khuhyun. Yesung.

not in there : Kangin.

Y 5/15/2010 02:03:00 AM

Saturday, May 08, 2010

wooohooo its been two months?
blogging isnt much fun now..since i spend most of my days surfing you tube.
imma freaking addicted to it.
mom too. ( its been SHINee ever since she saw HELLO BABY)
planning on a trip in january with baby sis and cuzzie.
see how it goes.
hopefully it goes well.
yea hopefully.
superjunior have been playing a big part of my life now.
blasting on my portable player.
on my pc.
on my youtube.
on my walls.
its like there's something to LOVE every day.
i even felt like taik when i learnt that Hankyung's not part of Suju nimore.
Kibum's prolly doing his own thing. hardly at any concert. =(
but i do hope Suju's fans all over the world do not give up on them.
i sound like a teeny 13 year old. dammit.
but i dont care.
anticipating their 4jib soon~.
well till then.
everything's pretty fine.
and feek.. happy brirthday soon~!

Y 5/08/2010 03:32:00 AM

Friday, March 19, 2010

freaking long time never blog ehh.. mcm weird.
there are many reasons why i was unable to update.
but only a few is reasonable enuff. *grinz*
reasonable excuses

1) tired.
2) lazy.
3) work.
but since its 1.15am and i din have much to do online ive decided to blog.
and since my only "FAN" reading is my own auntie.. i wouldnt want to lose her also.
in time they might have to close my blog down due to SEVERE boredom.
anyway there are many reasons what have been distracting me from blogging.
but im gonna just mention a few.


i have been constantly watching Youtube.
for SHINee hello baby and Super Junior.
so i spent 99% on my pc surfing this shows.
recommended watch.
SHINee - Hello Baby.


Funny go here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5zoqkBD3-yU


actually thats all. haha. they are the reason.

will update real soon.
till then..
nak gi carik makan oi!


Y 3/19/2010 01:13:00 AM

Sunday, February 21, 2010

i am so depress.
extremely depress i could eat a whole tub of ice cream.
i cant get IPOD TOUCH that i have been wanting
but my kuzzin has it.
so anyone who pities me please help me get 1.
just the 308 dollar can oreadi.

Y 2/21/2010 05:57:00 AM

Thursday, February 18, 2010

life is just like a can of Pringles.
when you get tired munching on it
you just close the lid.
well no blogging for now.
work been so hectic.
maybe 1'ce i start my permanent night
i will start regular blogging.
ps: i LOVE the kids on my music playlist.
till they make me feel like a phedophile.
cause the eldest is 22 and youngest 15.
but very talented.

Y 2/18/2010 05:45:00 PM

Saturday, January 30, 2010

since my mother asked me to blog about her.
*evil grin*

my mak Ariza Bte Ahmad.
i think i have the coolest mom in the world.
her restrictions were never too tight or too loose.
because of that bila nak buat jahat kita pon tak sampai hati cause
she gave us enough freedom to trust us so we never took advantage.
i always tried to make her proud no matter what.
but i think the proudest moment i made for her was when i became a nurse.
chey chey chey.
menyampah. *puji sekejap*
but as we grow older we are not the same as before we admit.
we got our own plans. our own companion. our own fun.
not like before where everything is a day with mak.
but whenever we can.. making her happy is what we want.

mak pon ader kelakar moment gak.
when she suka ikutkan perasaan cakap dia menopaused la.
cakap dia depression la.
cakap takder orang kisah sal dia la.
i mean all mother go thru this. but actually this is just one of the days.
like when she tertinggal her gigi palsu.
when she want to put on her gigi at food court.
macam dia sorang ader gigi palsu nak malu pakai.

that day on the bed when i was sick mak told me
"mak paling rapat dengan kau tau"
but i was busy focusing on my KAHAK haha.
but i noe. cause i noe i dun usually fite with her.
i dun usually ignore what she say.
i dun usually argue with her.. (kadang kala je la eh)
thats why she usually confide in me. hehe.
that day when she was really sick and adik was on night shift.
i was actually outside with DDie.
and then she msged me she is sick and alone.

DDie saw the msged and asked me to accompany my mom.
we were both worried if anything happened and i rushed home.
eventho sampai lambat la.
*kwang kwang kwang*

another case is when that day i was on afternoon shift ..
she messaged me that she crave for chocolate.
and she was sick.
i told her i am tired and not in the way of the shop.
but as i made my way home.. i thought.. when i crave for otak otak she will buy.
when i crave for bbq chicken she go to extend to find.
so i bought it for her.

i really really really REALLY cannot understand her.
i cannot understand
WHY SHE TELL ME THAT DUDE? DUDEK? DEDEK? is coming to singapore?
and ask me want to come?
since when i even like this DUDIK?
tak faham. tak faham.
k lah. gotta go.
nak gi makan.

ps : mak lau leh bayar tgok si lahabau tu sampai 60 dollar... takkan tak leh present kan lia ipod touch time bdae!? hehe.

kwang kwang kwang.
the SONG is for you and all my aunties.
i luv u.

Y 1/30/2010 12:07:00 PM

Friday, January 29, 2010

@ 12.00am
MOM asked me to blog something about her.
mak : kau tulis la pasal mak..mama kau kan suka baca...
so... what shud i blog.
my brain stopped working after the meds.
now i cant seem to have anitin to blog about.
maybe tomoro.
the entry will be all about mak.

Y 1/29/2010 12:12:00 AM

Thursday, January 28, 2010

mood : macam lendih pekat
everything's back to normal.
kahak out of the way.
clearer lungs.
everything settled now.
thank you to the antibiotics.
and of course mak and abah for forcing me to the doctor.
penat dengar they NAGGING so i went.
and thank you HOPE CLINIC doctor for making my 1 1/2 hour wait for you worthwhile.
the meds have been making me sleep my days away.
3 days i stayed at home and had my much deserved sleep and rest.
so now energy level dah menambah.
to this point i have not missed work at least ONCE.
yes. haha.
DDie been very busy with work.
yet to go get his referral.
soon maybe.
okay now i shall pop my colourfull pills.
puff my ventilator
and wait for the drowsiness to kick in.
till then.. much love~

Y 1/28/2010 11:29:00 PM

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

mood : macam kahak hijau.
had a sleepover at Kak Ct's place.
what a bad move.
if i have known..i wud have gone back home.
cause i fell sick the next day.
nose dripping like nobody business. macam TAP WATER man!
then went back home and developed cough.
then fever of 38.4 and sudden shortness of breath.
slept with mak and she got scared hearing me having difficulties breathing.
she brought me to the doctor.
nasib baik they waive off my payment under SGH scheme.
kalau tak mesti confirm mahal.
so many medicines to eat and the 2 different cough syrups!
now a bit better.
and suddenly remember that i havent shower the whole day.
now then got the strength to log in and blog.
just ate my medicines. waiting for the drowsiness to kick in.
gotta go catch american idol with mak.

till then.. muakcs!

Y 1/27/2010 10:24:00 PM

Saturday, January 23, 2010

so i left my blog to die as i recuperate for days.
reading back my last entry.. mcm minah minah jiwang seh.
i think i was having those "FEELING FEELING" sedih at that time.
skrang dah tak.
skarang dah back to normal mode.
bila nie leh gi KL lagik.
nak holiday tapi kena save.
nak gi holiday tapi kena kerja.
nak gi holiday tapi tak boleh membazir.
just now i saw a cat resting and i told mak
then mak say
kena makan dengan anjing??
time to sleep.
need to work.
tonight sleep with mak and im not gonna enjoy it.
1) sheila is sick so cannot sleep with her.
2) Mak bed very hard.

Y 1/23/2010 02:17:00 AM

Sunday, January 17, 2010

mood : macam keropok basi.
sometimes things dont turn out like you wish it would.
like how much you wish you passed your exams.. but you dont.
how much you hope to get that iphone...but you dont.
wouldnt it be easy just being able to want something without obstacles.
i believe i have given so much than what i get in return.
unfair treatment.
unreasonable selfish behaviour.
i don't need all that.
why ask for something complicated when you cant even give me SIMPLE?
sometimes its worth pondering on things.
its worth thinking twice.
its worth changing minds.
sometimes i wish i have something or someone that can listen to me shout and scream.
but friends was always an issue.
im not the friend keeper type.
everyone just slip away as time goes.
telling a family will be different.
not the same.
well i guess i just gotta sleep those thoughts off.
if i do cry in my sleep..
dear "PENUNGGU" ambik tissue lembut lap kan eh?
sometimes what you wish you had isnt there.. and its not the time yet.

Y 1/17/2010 11:07:00 PM

today i learnt that the above phrase are
Maki Maki yang tak "berdosa"
courtesy of my aunt and mak.
anyway Abah Ishak Karim!
thank u!

Y 1/17/2010 02:45:00 AM

Friday, January 15, 2010

sore red teary (L) eye.
big big itch mark on face.
itchy nose.
runny nose.
constant irritating sneezing
all due to
im allergic to Cats after all.
but she's so cute how to resist!

Y 1/15/2010 02:28:00 AM

Thursday, January 14, 2010

ive got noting to update.
just dat..
conversation of the day :
DD : nasib eh i tak pernah nampak "benda-benda" yang tak harus di nampak.
me : dorang tengok you pon dorang fikir 3 , 4 kali nak kacau ke tak nak sey!

Y 1/14/2010 02:51:00 AM

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

blogging seems a hassle now.
despite the fact no one read my blog
cept' for my 13 year old cousin who occasionally drops by.
hence the reason why i never blogged.
many stuffs happens.
both fun and forgetable. (correct o not?)
O's were out few days back.
phyQQ sadly din make it. which surprises me.
but i think everyone deserves a 2nd chance.
so i hope she does the right thing now.
work is forever macam taik.
so theres no need to say.
but thank you for the promotion.
the bf have been living with Amy.
Vista Point was never in my list of places to go before i die.
and i went. so okay lah not bad lah.
many stuffs been happening. so many issues to think about.
so yea.
first month of '10 is not looking so good so far.
hopefully it gets much better real soon.
till then toodles!

Y 1/13/2010 04:16:00 AM

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

29th november.
family picnic at ecp.
insect feast on my leg night.
today i had calamine lotion all over my body.
fiz texted me back.
reunion mebe?
so excited.
going to JE today.
eventhough DD do not want to watch New Moon..
how can i pass such a HOT opportunity.
no way!

Y 12/01/2009 11:17:00 AM

Thursday, November 26, 2009

and OH YEAH.
good luck ATIKAH for ur results later.

Y 11/26/2009 02:32:00 AM

ive been accused of being the GUILTY one to start the unwanted spam.
how did i get myself involved with this bunch of kids.
*smack forehead*
anyway. pls do not include me in ur future dispute.
u guys shud make up and be friends.
kids like ur age shud be discussing over erm..boybands? or bands?
not spitting stupid remarks to each other.

alright.. over with the boring topic.
1) how could someone be so heartless to kill a kid.
2) kill a kid and not feel guilty.
3) there is such idiots in this world.

how could you even have the heart to kill them.
those innocent kids.
those innocent look. eyes. cries.
only god knows what is going through their mind and their feelings ..
those moments when they have any clue they were about to die..
in a horrific cold way.

i love kids.
and i dun understand why.
why you cud be so heartless.

i thank for once the singapore government for imposing the DEATH PENALTY.
but at the end of the day..
even u hang that person. even u shoot him dead. even u electrocuted them like hell..
can u ever bring the innocent kid back?

what have the world turned into.

my prayers to Rashidy, 6 years old.

Y 11/26/2009 02:02:00 AM

Monday, November 16, 2009

its been sometime eh?
blogging aint fun anymore. lols.
more other things in mind.
first up NAZURAH zee got married last week to Eddy.
like finally.
so 1 down. 2 more to go.
it was a very tiring but wonderful experience.
helping baby sis with all her wedding affair next year.
just got her bridal outfit.
now left with...MANY MORE. gosh.
but hopefully things go smoothly.
my kuzzie mom and bro have been telling me about ATIKAH.
how her friends been calling her BITCH?
do we still use that word now? (well it seems so YESTERDAY that word)
i think ive not used it since ... erm.. 19 years old.
tapi ape leh buat..budak 12 tahun.
well.. anyway..
i wonder.. dont u guys have anything else to do?
like.. erm..tolong mak masak ke? tengok budak budak lelaki ke? LOLS
that part i like la cause nowadays i see those POST PSLE kids at cwp.
u noe..standing..tgok sana..tgok sini..senyum sana..senyum sini..
mcm promoter. very cute!
korang sumer patot buat gitu. dari fikirkan orang lain nyer problem.
ke keluar ke hooray hooray.
since u guys are too young to do major celebration..
korang gi la Macdonalds ke.
ITS VERY FUNNY when i hear all this bitch calling activity.
macam budak kecik. umur dah 12. dah UZUR ke belom nie korang sumer?
susah datang eh.
if it happens to my kid one day.. i will tell him/her ..
"beh kau tak tumbok muka budak tu?"
aiya girls.. korang tak baik tau buat mcm gini. nie baru primary school.
nanti korang gi secondary school.. jadi sec 1.. tgok la budak upper sec kacau korang.
and then.. you will realise..the word BITCH is just a small peanut.
that's bout it.
and to ATIKAH :
baby girl. u dun have to worry. let them call u bitch. or wadever shit they wanna say. cause they are just a bunch of babies. u will see them only this one week. nanti dey go to seconday school .. let karma take its action. for now.. u got me. abang didie. shiela. abang fadli. ur big bro SID and all his gang. so dun worry. u are well taken care of.
keep smiling baby girl.

Y 11/16/2009 01:38:00 PM

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

raya wasnt so successful this year as the previous year.
i was more dull and lame.
guess everyone's not really in the raya mood.
well. the reason ive not been updating is because
i just dun have the time to come in yet.
so all the people out there.
take care.
stay away from drugs and hospitals.
so i dun have more patients to look at.

Y 10/07/2009 10:11:00 PM

Friday, September 18, 2009

daddy cool got his van today.
its fully air conditioned so we dun have to worry
- being hot.
- powerful wind/air blowing our hair.
- be in the rain or sun.
and still be beautiful on raya day.
gotta go get ready to meet DD.
then to Yishun to meet family before going geylang. (bleurgh)
mak: asal dd dah tak slalu datang rumah?
me: nanti kawin mak leh tgok dia harihari.
mak: la mak boring ah takder orang nak bual.korang sumer mcm orang bisu.
*roll eyes* my mom un-officially disowned me today.

Y 9/18/2009 04:46:00 PM

Saturday, September 05, 2009

late night karaoke.
need to get ddie his own mic the next time.
birthday coming.
raya coming.
annual leave coming.
obar dancing.
gotta go work!

Y 9/05/2009 04:37:00 PM

Monday, August 31, 2009

DD & Yus. (flyback tattoo)
stuffs pretty much the same.
its been sometime since i updated.
i have nothing to update.
satisfied with everything now.

will come back soon with more updates.

Y 8/31/2009 06:47:00 PM

Saturday, August 01, 2009

first. there is nothing great bout nurses day.
i dun even feel appreaciative of myself.
second. i have 3 NGTS awaits me today ON NURSES DAY.
third. i am the only junior.
how great can my leaders be welcoming me back after 6 months of night.
on top of that. bf decides to leave me crapping at work while
he and his friends go wash their cars.
at this moment
I so so so want to wash cars.
being engaged is nothing
it only means i gotta start losing weight.

Y 8/01/2009 11:20:00 AM

Thursday, July 30, 2009

25th July 2009
Nura and DDie
got engaged.

Duration Of Engagement : 3 Years or Less.
Year Of Expected Marriage : 2012.
Dowry : 10K.

Special Thanks To:
Siti Ruzaimah (MissyZai) : for the wonderful hantarans.
Alin Ahmad : for being my camerawoman.
Zarifah Mustapha : for the tikar. LOLS.
Yati Noni : For the Make Up n Accessories.
Zee & Russ & Shiela : for the 2 days of help!.
Fadli Suhar : for helping me out with the tikar.
my Family : for entertaining the guests real well.

and others that i missed out im sorry.

it was sure a rocking good time.

tanks to those who came.
& of cos
Marine Parade Dudes
for helping DDie out.


insyallah sampai ke jinjang pelamin yeee.

P.S: More Pix In Facebook.

Y 7/30/2009 12:29:00 PM

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

my very last round of nyte.
going back to shifting.
so disappointed when i saw my roster.
but nvm.
gonna miss Melody the most.
tarching pe!
been busy PLUS lazy to update.
will have a proper update soon.

Y 7/21/2009 03:17:00 AM

Saturday, July 04, 2009

i was 17 n i bought my first LP album.
i memorize every single song.

finally this year.. they are back.
transformers ost.
and they still sound the same..

oh n the movie too

(eventhough it was long and my butt got ached)

Y 7/04/2009 12:27:00 PM

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

5 minutes ago..
the ECG nurse said i looked 21.
21! that made my day. k now u can leave ur patient in the toilet i will gladly fetch them for you.

Y 6/17/2009 03:18:00 AM

nobody bloody attend that toilet call since 5 minutes ago.
so to de-pissed myself and pretend to look busy..
i blog.
why do people push patients to toilet and totally leave them there.
dun they noe when u shit or piss they is sure to be an end to it.
u dun expect the patient to POO the hell out of himself for the next 5 hours.
and even if you leave.. look out for that damn call!
the downside of doing my permanent nyte is that
i keep looking forward for my off days.
and its only the 3rd nite.
shiela's birthday today.
she turned erm.. 23? wah da besar anak mak.
dah nak jadi isteri orang. satu haprak pon tak tau!
no celebration cause i emptied my wallet and bank 15 hours ago.
and ive got like 8 more days to go?
anyone wanna transfer some money to me? i wont object.
on saturday..
i'll be extremely shiok-cited.
till then.. DD gua rindu lu la beb~ dah dua minggu.

Y 6/17/2009 03:05:00 AM

Thursday, June 11, 2009

thursday is swimming day.
ahmad family.
Lets soak our damn body
like a bunch of damn badak sumbu.
we are not civil servant?
but we can pass off as certified servant though.

Y 6/11/2009 05:22:00 PM

Saturday, June 06, 2009

Happy 4th Year Mr Bob!
Thanks for the midnight wish.
& being so "semangat" expressing ur feelings..
hope u have fun with the "lil wayne rooney"


ps: deep thoughts and prays for Fadli & Shiela
2 friends and their families.
who met an accident at m'sia.

Y 6/06/2009 10:24:00 AM

Friday, June 05, 2009

mom's date to sakura later at 12 with aunties.
zee's and shiela's snore woke me up
bf's morning call : NO BONUS for civil servants.
woke up went toilet..
daddy cool shoved the whole newspaper in my face..
and its only 0930 at that time.
that made my day
do u noe how important it is to us?
oh well.

Y 6/05/2009 10:06:00 AM

Thursday, June 04, 2009

had family chalet.
had many more 20 cents gamblings.
endless nights.
manchester united lost the champions league.
so finally ive decided to update.
do u actually realise how cruel aunties really are to kids?
those between 3-5 years old.
cause 7 years or older would have kicked their butt.
when they like to go "ahhh kk..ikot cik alik eh..cik bawak alik eeehhh..aiyoo..kk BYE MAKK..."
and then the kids muka will start to be so ronyok. and when they start wailing to other people irritant..it was sound of pleasure to that auntie..
and i realise..only the malay makciks like to do tis..
i saw this event in the bus..where this makcik was practically pulling the kid away from the mom (apparently tat MOM was her daughter) so i guess it was bad growing up cause even the kid is afraid of the grandma. anyways... so she was like in this "AH AH..nenek bawak alik ehh.. aiyoo nanti mak tinggalkan ehhh" and the kid jus start crying. and after that?... what? dah bis. tu je. the mother will go hushing that damn kid. and its all over.
kasi satu chap "L" ah kat dahi makcik.
it happened to me. to a wedding. apparently OF ALL people.. i have to be the one carrying the dulang with the (R) shoe. i din noe why until tis day. and where is the (L) one? k anyway.. somehow in the mid of KANCHONGness i got separated from my mom. and ended up in a minivan with LOTS of cruel auntie. i was sitting so innocently practically tinking to myself where the HELL is mak.. and tis auntie telephatically managed to get thru wad i was tinking. may be it showed in my face la. BUT WHAT THE HECK. haa. and they start la. what else
"aiyooo kan mak dah alik tinggalkan" and how cud they make me hate my mom at that mere 10 mins. CHISH, well all i could do was stare at the shoe. i din cry cause the moment i felt like crying we arrived and i saw my beautiful mom waiting. haha. bloody aunties.
so future aunties to be.. u guys..dun play tis kind of trick to kids ah.. very bad. hehe.
4 years is coming by..
bf is forever busy with work.
but i understand.
happy 4th year Rasidy.
lu rock ah babe!

Y 6/04/2009 06:53:00 PM

Thursday, May 21, 2009

my last night...
3 more draggy hours to go.
can't wait.
family chalet over the weekend.
need to get stuff for july over the weekend.
catch sufficient sleep over the weekend.
play poker cards over the weekend.
last weekend was a blast.
manchester united won the cup!
me n bf lost $2.70 to shiela and fadli.
at least zee and eddy got some too!
so tis weekend is revenge!
AYANG we must get back our money!
i wan to give a special special SPECIAL tanks to
for willing to help me and didie out with the gifts.
i will advertise ur work once u done with them okay!
hehe promote!
patient nak ventolin.
and henna chi keep coughing in my face.
nyte people!

Y 5/21/2009 03:01:00 AM

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

someone said to me : "you are just a low grade nurse and a slave!"
i just said to him : "tell me something new ah uncle. i heard this for like 100th time very boring already"
that ticked him off.
well besides having sister cher supporting me ( i tink she have a crush on me)
she basically waved him off when he complained about my rudeness.
dah tak bleh angz sia!
then pitifully at 730am i told Irene bout tis too.
so im covered.
to that patient...
yesterday work was hell.
damn those BMS system.
damn that stupid apek.
admissions back 2 back.
pls make my night go a lil bit faster.
so many greater things to look forward over the weekend.

and of course the much needed rest.

Y 5/19/2009 06:15:00 PM

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

what's new besides the FLU BABI.
practically everyone's into that now.
oh... how i hate those N95's.
i find it IMPOSSIBLE to talk to P.Tan.
(besides many other things i find IMPOSSIBLE in her)
i went in.
in 10 seconds im out again.
and i din even noe what i asked.
i din even make myself clear
and she went nodding her head and OKAY for 10 seconds
macam mana nie!
maybe she just have some disorder.
i guess.
pfft. *roll eyes*
since she said ok. i guess its ok rite?
well 2 more months till im out of night.
back to shifts. no more weekend off.
why does everything DD says will make people laugh?
i wonder.
we are the total opposites.
yea yea im the boring lame shit person.
but he really surprise me.
the other day .. he made zee shiela laughed the whole 5 hours.
the other day.. shiela said they sat with him for just 10 mins and hes cracking them up.
we watched soccer and no one even paid attention. it was all jokes and laughter.
aku rasa dia gila ah.
mebe ah.
tak betol ah nie sumer.
is spitting in MILO wrong?
why do patients love MILO at 6am!

Y 5/05/2009 03:17:00 PM

Friday, April 24, 2009

i cleaned my room.

found a book.

it was dated 2006.

in it was 267 wish list i had.

flip thru and memories rush thru.

got to page 6 and i cried.

on it:

dated: 2009

1) i wish you have achieve half of your wish list.

2) i wish you know your parents love you.

3) i wish you know you ARE a good daughter.

4) i wish you have a lovely future cause i know i wont be long here for you.

5) i wish i could be here and protect you forever.

6) i wish you know i really love you.

7) i wish i was 20 years old again to have you & your sister.

she read.

i love you mak.

i really do.

i thank god for you.

Y 4/24/2009 05:35:00 PM

Saturday, April 18, 2009

bf, im sorry i acted weird.
i cudnt take the LOUD voices of ur mom and auntie.
i was prolly stoning away.
its been 2 months since ive met them.
the sounds were BAD!
u noe i love u ryte....
hang in there buddy~
im always here bf.

Y 4/18/2009 04:04:00 AM

Thursday, April 16, 2009

1130 have never felt so long.
facebook.tagged.blog.yahoo news.
all surf-ed!

rite.. i shall go on my date now.

Y 4/16/2009 10:34:00 AM

Saturday, April 11, 2009

my (R) ear is hurting like SHIT.
suppose to go book-hunting with bf & feek.
but NONE of them are awake.
mcm ye-ye je nak bangun pagi.
well. other than that.
eh girls : botanic garden?
and ifah. no jogging. pls.
selamat pagi.

Y 4/11/2009 09:14:00 AM

Thursday, April 09, 2009

this week of night went with the wind.
i think its me.
i got used to it.
just that.
i bought a book.
5 days ago.
& im done with it now.
so back to boredom.
& bf noted that i need.not want. NEED book #3.
it doesnt help a bit that HASFURAH got all 4 book.
cause she wont lend it to me.
simply cause they are not out of the wrappers yet.
i miss the twins.
very much.
hopefully bf wont be too busy.
he have to bring me over to them soon.
i prolly die of severe obsession soon.
i guess i just do something online.
since i got no book to read.
& i just have no craving to start on the STEPHEN KING's yet.
mebe soon.
and people..
kind hearted ones..
get me this book : YAKUZA MOON.
i was craving for pasar malam's TAKOPACHI.
how estatic i was wen mom and dad's going to pasar malam.
so i msged mom.
that's when i heard it....
if onie i can telephatically send message to her.
k i shall go find sumtin to fill my nite.

Y 4/09/2009 09:48:00 PM

Tuesday, April 07, 2009


HAPPY 3yrs 10months ke pe!

thanks hor.


c u sat

Y 4/07/2009 05:34:00 PM

Sunday, April 05, 2009

dear stranger..
sorry about yesterday.
but its not nice to stare a person like that.
and u triggered bf's plug.
my bf is not a gangster.
he's just crazy.
so please...
dun stare at people unless u have a reason to.
no hard feelings to whoever u are.
till we meet again.
at shop n save.

Y 4/05/2009 06:05:00 PM

Saturday, April 04, 2009

fast and furious 4 was superb.
despite bf made us wait 4 hours for the show.
he does most of the talking.
i was sleepy.
and sitting in the wrong seat.
lucky the couple were so great.
see how bf distract me.
and he said
"even u make mistake. *he giggled*"
*roll eyes*
eh bf.
1) Fast and Furious.
2) Too fast and furious.
3) Fast and Furious - Tokyo Drift
4) Fast and Furious 4
guess we watched all 4 already after all
fuck popular. now i have to go and collect my book there.
family dinner today
mom's cooking ikan bakar yum!
bf bringing BBQ chix. DOUBLE yum!
to gf:
i love u.
u noe i do.

Y 4/04/2009 01:41:00 PM

Saturday, March 28, 2009

watched movie with bf.
goku so handsome.

then MAMA bdae surprise.
we did good.

then pool/bowling with shiela imah zee fadli.
but i won over the bf by 1 point
as always..
sore loser.


gd nite people.
today was a HUGE BLAST.

Y 3/28/2009 03:06:00 AM

Friday, March 27, 2009

super tetek day out.
love u guys.
aidil "terperanjat" face sealed the day

k got date with bf.
gosh i had 2 hour convo with bf bout dulang.
all i can tink was..
gotta blast.

Y 3/27/2009 11:05:00 AM

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

kak nafisah
can really really REALLY laugh.

Y 3/24/2009 04:53:00 PM

Monday, March 23, 2009

man u lost to fullham.
who cares.
2 red card..
who cares.
all i care is the match with PORTO.
and go to the finals.
in all that i hope they do see Liverpool.
hehe. or chelsea..
if chelsea kick LP in the butt at the semis.
on that note
kalau sesiapa yang terLAMPAU banyak duit.
tolonglah t/f sini sikit.
in need for cash..
to get rid of my depression.

Y 3/23/2009 03:26:00 AM

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