him.. her.. they.

im here again to blog shitless things tat no one bothers to blog about but MYSELF. woooo! aniwae things have been great. tings have been wonderful. tings have been a bliss. and all tis are lies. woo..hehe no lar okei okie lar.. been up and about with the siblings. its been siblings hang out day(s) for the past weeks.. me nadz farz and shielalalalala. hehe we went to Esplanade and met up Alfian there.. tat kinda tings and took lotsa and lotsa of crazy mafaking pictures. heahea but its fun..tanks for the fun time.. pssst to farz : pan amaciam! heaheahea wuahahhaha PUHHH LEeEeEeaaaSSSeeee!!!!!!!

long time never been down to dome.. never seen the dome peeps for like weeks? yeah do miss them but life sumtimes have tis turning point where you dun usually do wad u normally do? get wad i mean? yeah of course we miss the luffter and the times where we sit and hang out till weeee hours.. but things are different now.. its all the talent guys there now..and they are busy with performance and sum shows.. so i dun tink it will still be the same ol ting to hang out there.. miss shida too.. we cant pretend tat we have no miss in us for her.. but then as she said..we cant lie and pretend that we wanna spent time with each other onli in the end to make the other party feel used.. mebe she got her own agenda.. time with her bf.. and with her crew.. its all understandings.. but she is still our friend.. we will still be there for her.. after all we are former serangkais.. but tings gotta move on for me nadz and farz and shielalala so yeah hope she's fine with everythin she is doing.. *smiles*

cudnt believe how fast a guy can get a replacement hours after he broke sumone's heart? dun they feel the pain we do?dun they ever think the time spent together..dun they even thought of all the hardship they went with each other.. those hugs.. those words.. those kisses? damn.. i feel my lil baby gyal.. he mite haf a sucky and +++ ugly looking girl..but u haf the last laff sweet nini..cause wen he realise that ure the one he mite be looking for..he is just a speck of dust to u~.. we all feel u girl!!! *smiles* and to aidil.. ure dumb. tats all i can say.. u thrown away a piece of gem.. heck she is a diamond tat worth a million boy~ how dumb..

jus listening to some songs.. finally i got some quality time to catch up with my MTV moments. caught some vids tat i hardly get to see but heard the song.. i caught eminem-mocking bird.. mario-let me <3 you.. and others lar.. Akon too!! wooo.. but besides that im tired of tv too..and computer too.. i wish i can sleeeeeepp whole nite away.. i haf this craving for seedless grapes suddenli..

i miss people hu fucked my life..
i miss people who diss me...
i miss fucking people life...
...fuck away from me.


* .we.carved.our.name.and.its.gonna.be.forever. *

Y 4/13/2005 11:09:00 PM

*rarr rarr*

people like pissing me off.. do i have a tag on my forehead tat says "Feel FREE to PISS me off".. do i? do i haf tat u mudafucking moronic mudafukas!!! *argh* hehe. geram sia. aniwae sumone pissed me off so bad.. tat i jus wanna dunk his head into the toilet bowl.. and then give it 5 flushes and dunk it summore. haha I WISH I CAN DO TAT. damn. stay outta my life jerk. besides tat im cool arh. i can't stand PISSER. -_- fuck off from my sight..

todae i work in the newly open ward. nice sia. new environment.. then make my day much more happier got all those rugby malay guys. wah i did my work with a smile.. not like i never smile before.. i always do but todae is Xtra wider. wuaha. single mus look and try to look single. wuaha. but all they did was ask me how long i work there.. sheesh.. ask lar.. wads ur digits ke? wads ur house floor ke? ic number ke? bodoh peh jantans.

i miss nadia..farz and shidada. suddenli its been a few days since i last saw Nad and Farz. kalau tak kita will always hang out but then i din get to meet them a few days oreadi.. Nad is attached again.. with Nick Harris the hunk *hubba hubba* she is ONE GOD DAMN LUCKY girl.. and Farz as u noe.. is unattached.. shidada is still the same i tink.. Nick i hate him arh cause he calls me auntie.. he tink he so young arh..eh Nad tell ur BF to shaddap ah~ suruh dia pi tgok cermin k! hehehe

seen my nex schedule.. having my tuesday and wednesday off..wooo besh seh... cant wait.. aniwae Zai going on her trip to KL with her bf oreadi.. all the best gerl! hope u enjoy urself..bawak balik souvenir arh..pamphlet pon boleh arh..Jgn bawak balik anak sua! hehe. haf fun!!! weeee ~

i got noting else to blog *rarr rarr*

i jus miss him. wish u were here again ]xx

Y 4/09/2005 11:43:00 PM

mister potato.

im tired.. or am i? i dunno. mebe im jus having post-werk tiredness.. aniwae jus came home from work and todae X-tra busy sumhow make me wanna quit. hah but dream on nura tat u can quit. so no matter wad happen mus smile lar.. smile and smile tat i dun wanna smile animore... welcome to my life~

read Farz entry about her latest relationship which din actualli work out ..again..i realised how she can end sumtin with sumone she truly love but still remain so cool.. remain deep within herself..and yet luff and smile with us.. jus like nutin happens.. and i tink back of the time i cried and crumble jus cause a guy left me.. i look like a fool.. i sure did.. mebe yeah its true i still tink of him but looking at how brave and strong front Farz put on make me change the way i tink.. its true.. u can live without them..if u believe tat u can.. mebe back then i realised that losing sumone u love means the world comes crushing down on u.. but i learned thru all those shits ive been thru..they make u stronger and wiser in picking ur nex love partner..but still love sucks for me lar.. wuahahha.im proud of u Farz.. and we all noe u realli love him and miss him deep deep down despite the smiles and luffter u had with us.. but i realli look up to u for doing that.. *huggies* will be there for each other..everyone of us.~

still regret of wad ive done to that sumone. but life have to move on. yesterdae went to Tampines and then walk2 around with Nad,Farz and Shiela.. sure had a luffty time. then we went back to Civics.. its was a skinhead affair.. sure lotsa skins sitting around.. saw Shah..and Daud and lotsa more then we proceed to Fushan RC. then jus hang out till its time to go home and by tat time i was so tired. i slept like a baby. hehe meant to type pig but tat so discouraging! hehe. i was tired.

im realli lost of wad to type animore. mebe im not an avid blogger animore. wuahah. wad a title to give myself. im a work-a-holic now. eventho i hate working and my work sucks. but still i have to got thru tat EVERYDAY for the rest of my freaking life! argh argh. where are all the rich men i can marry? *giggles* i wanna marry rich man.. then stop work.. make him babies.. stay home and yet get to be pampered with cash.. YAR RITEEE... im gonna be the government slave for my next 30 years. argh argh... again i remind..welcome to my life ~

...picit sini. picit sana. salah picit. nanti merana. (a poem made by Boy-Ok) lame but mus give credit cause he took 35 mins to tink of tis..

xx[ and my heart goes *dead* ]xx

Y 4/08/2005 11:52:00 PM

nura__________________fuck.

hey morning to all those who bothered to even open my page up. got up early morning in attempt to accompany Boyok to the hospital but i grew lazy and he din wanna go to.. so yeah no plans.

waiting for Faz..Farz? Fast? which one sia. hehe. waiting for NANA to come over to ma place. see lar that kid exams nex week still dun wanna go to skool.. later fail ur mother nag and then ur father latch the door later u cannot use key to open how! hahahahahahhaahahha psst: they have the most cutest @ the same time Belo father i ever known! wuahah. still waiting tho...
mite be going to the Beach todae. but later on.. we are not the early kids hu likes to go do tings early in the morning. *smiles* so note to all hu wanna ask us out PLEASE do after 1pm. tankew. hehehe.

read all my past entries.. i sure sucks at love. but im glad cause at least i will find sumone better. aniwae i hurt sumone (i noe i did) recently.. i lied to u but all i wanted was a new life w/o him.. but he was hard.. now with you gone in thinking i played around.. im gonna suffer more..but tat wad i have to go thru ma self.. w/o u around there gonna be no more positive light for me.. guiding light..was jus switched off.. but im sorry. if you only knew.. and yeah he's rite.. i do miss you. tanks.

todae is off day. wen there is off day i get restless. yesterdae everytin was fine.. and i got noting else to update. hmmx.

...... and i went *blank*

xx[ white freakish spec lady ]xx

Y 4/07/2005 10:09:00 AM

sugar dandy sticky chewy chocolatey fudge.

memorable day. hehe. a day we went out with no motives and in the end had a hearty laff along the way. "Thief Thief" wuahahh! a pic where we wanna take a pic on the reflection but it turns out OKIE.. not bad lar.. hehehe

tings are okie lar. i dunno wad to update. seriously. spent a whole day at Johor with Nad and family. wooo we had a nice day indeed. hehe attracted a whole bunch of malaysia dudes with lotsa hairs under the nose. wuahaha. HAWWWT *bleurgh* wuahaha. anwiae spend a day there. we went to alot of places.. had pizza.. had secretive puffies. *wink wink*

i got notin to update.

im brain dead.

and i still love killing fuckers.

i love si buntal.

wuahah.

xx[ go go power ranger ]xx

Y 4/06/2005 06:02:00 PM

...one minute ure luffing and the nex minute ure so down..wishing the world wud jus open up and swallow ur life away. at least tats wad i felt.. tonite.. sigh.

went out with the gerls + guy todae.. nad,farz,shiela and ejat. went down town to have the day out together. had lotsa fun. went to eat and then went to hang around esplanade. suppose to meet Is & fren but he was caught up with stuff at work so yeah chilled and then proceed to woodlands where we chilled till late before heading home.. tanks for spending time on my day off with me guys. *huggies*

i got my frens around me once again. tinks are cool now. i guess we need to settle it rather than ignoring everyting. who wud i turn to if not for them. who wud i share tings with if not for them.. so we did it once again. serangkai? not sure but we are still frens alrite. *smiles*

someone made me shed tears. wad did i do? was it even my fault? i dunno wad to expect outta tis outcome? am i to blame or issit tat some changed? tings have not been good and i noe its not me who make it tat way.. wasted my energy.. all gone to waste. again i learn tings the hard way.. i had enuff.. why cant gimme a smile tat will stick on me for like many years to come.. why life gotta make me smile with happiness onli to make me sulk again.. it hurts. now it really does. *sigh*

i hate him but yet i tink of him.
i hate him but yet i miss him.
i hate him but yet i wish...
i hate him.

so much for my happy ending.

xx[ everythin's fading ]xx

Y 4/03/2005 01:52:00 AM

Lollipop *shhmmaacckkss*

hello there! *smiles* yes at last im back to update tis ol' shit. busy shitless with all my work. plus im plain lazee to update bout' the plain ol' me. heahea. cant remember wad happened this past few days. beside the fact i went to club on last saturdae with Zai.. Sarina.. Manj.. LuLu and Shiela.. Reny cudnt make it tho.. damn! but it was sooooo freaking *bleurgh* but we had fun making our own remix of SNOOOOOP hehehe. *wink*

aniwae got lotsa stuff over my pay day the other time. ehehe got myself a total new sets of clothings and also a spec. and no i din get anitin brown. wuahahhaah! well aniwae im satisfied wad i had. hehe. *smiles* so shall wait for my nex target. which i haven make up yet. hehehe.
tings are fine between me and serangkais...again.. but then at least we got sumtin to an end. start afresh and start all over again.. wuahha. aniwae Nadz came over at my crib yesterdae and the dae before.. heheh heard the story about the "MAK & POLICE" tinggy.. wuahah PUNK ROCK tapi kena control cam siak! haha macam macam.. and tanks Nadz for the song tat made u missed me.. *giggles* feel sooo proud. biasa arh kat blog ader NURALICIOUS. hehehe

i <3 the mister. *smiles* "speaking about London..Jesus is Lord... REALLLLLIIIII" wuahahha mepeks siak pendek! hahahha.. this joke have been going around among us.. haha haha haiz.
was walking home from work yesterdae and then someone shouted my name at the Fushan. i tot who sia.. and then turned to see tat Hamartia Guitarist. hahaha Eric lar!! mish him sia so long never see him.. he was eating with his new GF..dunno how many times mus change larrrr.. hehe romantic lar they all eating Mac with mosquitoes. sharing is good! hehe. he offered me to pierce my lips but as i told him.. oh sorry im a professional nurse.. hahahahhahahah! well hope the mister and his missus last.. *smiles*

apek is handsome... boyok is marvellous.. harris is hunk-licious... why!!!! why make all tis guy appear around me onli as friends.. hahahahahaha. <3 dem deep deep..
i HATE IT wen im sleeping soundly and FREAKISH FUCKISH MUDDISH SIALISH people have to call me wen im sooo sound asleep... ARGH. and i forgot to silent my fone.. clever rite.. hehe. but then it was Boyok so answered and it was him and apek conferencing. haiya.. then apek told me to sleep and then boyok ask me to tok.. in the end i put the fone one side and i slept..tat was a simple solution. hehe my tummy is making tis grrribbbish sound and movement and my ass is expanding its hole so i tink i will shit... in a few minutes. *sucks*

to all tat fuck my life - i will freaking kill you.
to all tat love me - i will still kill you.
to all - fuck i love killing.

xx[ anjing skim ]xx

Y 4/01/2005 10:39:00 PM