im sorrie Mister Boo.

*sobs* i sorry i treated u like shit.

im sorry for throwing your hp and expect u to pick it up.
im sorry for throwing your money on da floor and u picked up every single cents.
im sorry for walking off and expect you to chase after me..

you picked up your dismantle handphone. you picked up 6 dollars worth of 10cents.
still you chased after me and said to me nicely what's wrong with me.

*sobs* im very sorry.

you said that for 8 months i never admit tat the person i truly love was you and i couldn't live without you. and all you wanted was to hear that.
I DO. i do love you. and yes i cant live without you ayang. *sobs*
tinking back jus now how bad i treated you.. you just hurt you finger and got it stitched.. and yet i treated u like shit. im sorry. i din mean to.
it will never happen again.

i love you. sigh.

im a bitch. sigh. wad's happening to me!

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Y 1/29/2006 02:50:00 AM

carve a smile

A young man goes into a drug store to buy condoms. The pharmacist says the condoms come in packs of 3, 9 or 12 and asks which the young man wants. "Well," he said, "I've been seeing this girl for a while and she's really hot. I want the condoms because I think tonight's "the" night. We're having dinner with her parents, and then we're going out. And I've got a feeling I'm gonna get lucky after that. Once she's had me, she'll want me all the time, so you'd better give me the 12 pack." The young man makes his purchase and leaves. Later that evening, he sits down to dinner with his girlfriend and her parents. He asks if he might give the blessing and they agree. He begins the prayer, but continues praying for several minutes. The girl leans over to him and says, "You never told me that you were such a religious person." The boy leans over to her and whispers, "You never told me that your father is a pharmacist."

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Suatu hari, ada seorang ketua bomoh yang begitu berani hendak berjumpa dengan sekumpulan jin yang berlegar2 di asrama hinggakan mereka merasuk sebilangan pelajar di sek itu. Ketika sampai di sebuah bilik, ketua bomoh pun membaca sejenis mantera. Selepas membaca mantera, ketua bomoh pun memanggil ketua jin itu.Lalu ketua jin itu pun datang. Dengan menunjukkan wajah rupanya yang begitu hodoh dan jijik.Hinggakan ketua bomoh yang begitu berpengalaman itu pun hampir2 pengsan dibuatnya! Hinggakan mayat reput pun lebih baik dari wajah si ketua jinitu!!! Tapi si ketua bomoh tetap kuatkan semangatnya yang jitu. Lalu si ketua bomoh pun bertanya dengan kuat dan nyaring, menampakkansemangatnya yang tidak kendur walaupun terlihat sesuatu yang begitu menakutkan itu. "Mengapa kau rasuk pelajar sekolah di sini hah? Jawap!!!" Kenapa gadis melayu jadi sasaran kau wahai syaitan yang direjam" Dengan menarik nafas panjang, si ketua jin pun menjawab...


"Siapa Bilang Gadis Melayu Tak Menawan
Tak Menarik Hati,
Tiada Memikat Kalaulah Memang,
Tak Mungkin Aku Tertarik Kalaulah Sungguh,
Tak Mungkin Aku MERASUK..."

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A chemist, a biologist, and an electrical engineer were on death row waiting for the electric chair. The chemist was brought forward first.
"Do you have anything you want to say?" asked the executioner, strapping him in.

"No," replied the chemist.

The executioner flicked the switch, and nothing happened.

Under state law, if an execution attempt fails, the prisoner has to be released, so the chemist was released.


Then the biologist was brought forward.

"Do you have anything you want to say?"

"No, just get on with it."

The executioner flicked the switch, and again nothing happened, so the biologist was released. Then the electrical engineer was brought forward.

"Do you have anything you want to say?" asked the executioner.

"Yes," replied the engineer.

"If you swap the red and the blue wires over, you might make this thing work."


sure make u smile. dumb.

Y 1/27/2006 10:35:00 PM

got myself a new haircut. together with DD.

coloured our hair too.. but DD gotta color his hair back cause he was promoted to Supervisor.

wad crap about having to keep a good image.. so yeah. *sad* but nvm.

yesterdae i was so sick. nearly to death bed kinda sick.
shivering non-stop. whining non-stop. Monster had to go all the way to the shop to get me TWO kind of panadols. haa. then he wrapped me up to keep me warm. hugged me thru till i got a bit okie. *sigh* im sorry i put u in so much trouble.

then we chill together till like 12am then his boss called to meet at New Park to tok about his new promotion. so we got ready and went there. then tok tok. i drank Horlick ice..TWICE! haa.
then they went off. then we went back. then accompay Monster at 6 o'clock to collect his pay. haa.

incident: Monster left me standing outside New Park backlane ALONE. he went in to get some stuff. so i was standing there. feeling all feverish and cold (the wind was sooo strong, i tink Farrer Park is the most windiest place ive ever been to.) stood there then suddenli out of the corner of my eyes this particular BANGLADESH was strotting my way. he was wearing a sleeveless tee and those Kain Plekat(is tat how u spell?) he approached me and showed me the sign 5. ARGH. he tinks im a fucking prostitute! then i was scared but he got me angry cause IM WORTH MORE THAN 50 okie! so i jus showed him the middle finger. and i gave him the BEST JELING in the world. then he walk off but he kept turning back. as he disappear in to the lane DD and Mamat came out. then i cried. to DD and Mamat. they went to look for him but he was no where in sight. then Ali came and also look for him. but im okie. phew. wad an experience. cool!

so a bit later Ayie and Ejat came out. then the bigger boys went to collect their pay then all of us went to sit at the coffeeshop to have breakfast. so yeah after that we went home. weee.

got a new hp. 7610. and Monster using my ngage.

im sick still. how to go to work sia. sigh

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Y 1/27/2006 05:32:00 PM

i am still with Didie.

so stop asking me wether i broke off with him oreadi or not.

hee. u guys do care. *smiles*

so nad really going for the BackSideBoys concert. interesting.
(hope u get their signature..and dun forget to tell Brian tat gua lap sama dia \m/)

so sat around @ Dome. noting much. i made Big Dan choke his cigarette which he nearly had heart attack. and choke on his 100 plus. damn. i would be a murderer seh. but then again i can revive him... CPR.. yum! haa. siak. sick.

nadia made a discovery...she jus realise tat KELING & INDIAN are the same meaning.

seriously.

suppose to meet DD todae. but cannot uh. then he sound so sad. aiya.

tanks for buying me chocolates yesterdae. i heart u day by day jus like how i try to hate u day by day. *sigh* wish we din meet. so it wont be tis hard.

i love and care for you...still.

-end-

Y 1/24/2006 02:41:00 PM

Little Did i know.

Little did i know ..... that nadia went to airport jus to catch Back Street Boys. \m/

Little did i know ..... i changed 3 people lives.

Little did i know ..... my sister existed.

Little did i know ..... being a nurse is actually fun.

Little did i know ..... 966 has shorter distance than 961.

Little did i know ..... im a sadist.

Little did i know ..... im back on IRC.

Little did i know ..... Bon Jovi is HOT.

Little did i know ..... i have weird friends.


so many tings ive left it hanging not wanting to be known.

Oh well....

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Y 1/23/2006 04:09:00 PM

retardly sick.



im a sadist.

i have a fetish of raping people with weird object. (fictional jer la ehh)

im sick.

farz call me a retard. i am not. im jus sick in the brain. haa.

i miss uncle. he's another fucktard. he likes going on a raping rampage.

stay away from me kids.

get ur ass fucked.

fuck the law. dun do drugs.

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Y 1/21/2006 06:28:00 PM

you left me.

with nothing. with no-one.

i gave you love. care. me.

i showed you the way.

now you went off with sumone new.

wad about me?.... *sobs*

i pray to god..it's only a dream. please not let tis be true.

*sobs*

Y 1/20/2006 01:13:00 AM

1900-Help-Me-Shit

i feel like shitting but i can't....i tried. 3x at work. still stuck up down there somewhere.
Uncle say drink chocolate milk. but i ate a bar of chocolate milk. so that wont do. *smiles*
i need to shit badly. help?

somehow i realise.. im a cam whore. seriously.
im not photogenic but i like to take picture. sheesh~

so..i took interest in Oasis suddenly. and Bon Jovi..and Vertical Horizon. i dunno why.
mebe tanks to Uncle Djas. wuaha.
besides the fact he tried pole dancing to the song of Bon Jovi's. crazy pantat.

so i got punk'd. tankew hor. Muhamadiyah (i realli duno wad his actual name) sucks together with Nad Farz and Niz. poor me and monster. but it was fun! *smiles*
i sucks at pool and daytona. i really sucks.

off finally! yes!

he surprised me. said he's not gonna meet me and as i opened the door there he was.. standing there with a box chocolate like i told him the day before. hee.
dear god.. i dun wan anitin else already... i jus wan to be his and with him forever.
for the first time my whole three nite he sent and fetch me back.

i miss hanging out and slacking.
i feel like going out.
i cant wait for pay day.
i wan clothes. i wan new hand fone. i wan to go see Oasis live.

i fell in love with a local band.. Dancing Nancies.
and uncle is part of them! weee. can i meet the Keyboardist please please!

i can't help it but i sleep on da fone and i find it's fun.
i snore too!

im asleep.

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Y 1/19/2006 10:47:00 AM

woke up early. tot of meeting DD earlier....and then ARGH.. no keys. hafta wait for my mom.

bad bad bad news : i left my make-up bag in the cab. dumb~ *sigh* all gone.

so i kept calling tis particular wrong number yesterdae. fucktard. 6times summore. it's a cina guy and at first he was going never mind never mind. then the 5th time i went " OH MY GOD I CALLED THE WRONG NUMBER AGAIN"... and he went " HAIYAAAAAA" then the 6th time i went to call him again *seriously it was not on purpose. fcuk* and i said " WHY I KEEP CALLING THE WRONG NUMBER SIAL" and he went "BASTARD YOU" then he hung up. wuahahahhaha! im a damn fcuktard.. i noe..~ haa.~ laff at me u jackass(es). *sigh*

so waiting for mom to come home to i can go out. i havent iron my uniform... havent shower... havent anitin at all... haa.

im so tired of everitin. i jus wan lotsa of chocolates. lie back. and look at all the tings in front of me unfold. everytin in front of me moving so fast as i lay back and jus watch. i give up in everyting. *smiles*

so i miss the kids. *wink* see ya later.

DD: i'll be there for you. *wink*

-end-

Y 1/16/2006 11:59:00 AM

we've been thru pain. but tis time its the most painful ting we've gotta go thru.

we might lose grip. we might lose. but tis is the risk. it cant go on any longer,

i love u.. u noe that. but no one knew.

*sobs*

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Y 1/15/2006 04:53:00 PM

ive changed my main pic. simple but nice. i like it. hee.

it's sick how guys treat girls nowadays. FIRSTLY dun come and tag at my board saying girls are about the same. the prob now is im blogging about my experiences. so i dun need wad u guys tink okie. *smiles*

Scenario :

(due to underage circumstances..name will strictly be confidential) *wadever it meant*

A friend got attached. Supposingly to be the nicest guy and the best bf. everyone's excited for her. then another friend receive a msg from the "BF".. keeping in mind that both of them are attached.. they told each other about their status. everytin went perfectly well.. the "BF" insisted on jus gettin to noe the friend. blah blah blah... a secret was let out of the bag. He wans to invite the friend for a mass orgy activity. without the knowledge of his GF. *sigh*
excuse: plainly was " Bad Habits Die Hard ".....

..... to be continued.

isnt it bad. imagine ur BF...Husband... Dad.. did tis activities behind their love ones? will it hurt u.. or wud u jus give it a shove off since it's a bad habit.. according to him.. to me seriously .. it wasnt bad habit.. it's jus pure lust. wadever it is... im gonna protect a friend.

pray that monster aint like tat. told him and he got really really and i mean REALLY angry. haa.
supposingly to meet Monster jus now but got it cancelled cause need to go auntie place and he needs to help the Masjid to cut up kambing meat. danging korban. hee he called me up sayin he got me some. then blabbering about how sad he looks at the kambing. then a tear drop lar.. then he cant' seem to hold the kambing down lar...haaaa...macam macam. all i can hear was the chopping sound. sad. haa
so mite be meeting him tomoro. i miss him. been 3 days. hee. no plans to where yet but we will figure it out. i tink...

gonna go sleep now. im sleepy.

i love u DD.
i miss u kids @ Dome.

-end-

Y 1/11/2006 01:16:00 AM

i went to the zoo. tankew. never ive seen anione as so sincere as you. i sat in the bus.. staring him meddling with my mp3.. staring at him trying to make a baby girl giggle.. staring at him staring back at me.. i could never understand why din i meet you earlier.. im blissed.
so went to the zoo with Monster. at first there's second thoughts of going. we got into a mini disagreement on the way. he keep insisting to turn back. then bought tickets. Tank you to the wonderful service of the zoo people that they allow us to keep my bag in their office. so went around and monster was like going "dope dope" wahhh here and there. the last time he went to the zoo was wen he was 9 years old. and now he's 26. i saw the child in him. we were constantly figuring out which way to go. we ate KFC. took the train at Children's World. took the tram to amuse ourself. took pics with the Zookeeper instead of the animals. *hensem siak* tak bley angkat. then tick tock tick tock its 6. he sent me to work. lying in his arm on the way home i asked him "u enjoyed urself?" and he answered "i enjoy everytin as long it's with you.." and i fell asleep. i fell in love with an angel. tis is indeed a fairy tale. *smiles*

mite be going to Nite Safari tis sunday. hee. weeeee cannot wait.

i miss the kids. hee been days since i last saw them.
Good Luck Niz on ur first day todae. *smiles*
i miss monster. been two days.

todae working. tired sia but wadda heck. last nite. yey.

to Faizal: pls dun do tis to me. you cheated on me and its been 1 year past by. please. i just dun love you no more. tank u.

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Y 1/09/2006 06:23:00 PM

we hit the 7. we did it. again..

happy 7th to u. tanks for being the first one to msg me. like i told u many times.. ure da best ting tat ever happened in my life. with u.. i understood life.. love.. friends.. and enemies. i learned to be independent. and i learned to stand on my own ground (despite constantly asking you to accompany me) but ive learned .. hee. ure rite.. there will be no other guy who can understand my character like you do. tank u for being patience with me. it means a lot.
u may not be a prince. and u may not be a star.. but i love u.. with all of my heart.
Happy 7th Month Rasidy. *winks*

todae work was okie. its weird how people keep asking me the same question over and over and over again. "fun working as nurse?" "do you get to see weird chikopek uncles?" "how you stand all the blood?" "not dirty meh?"
haa.. answers to tis.. I dunno... i really dunno. i jus dun feel a tink. wen i don that uniform and all i can tink of is work my shift away. get my tings done and go home. tats about it. and wen im out of uniform ... tats wen i start to realise wad ive done. haa. the only ting in mind wen ure at the ward is to work. seriously. so tats why dun ask me wether its fun or not.. of course its fun. you get presents of appreciation. you get to see cute patients. you get to see good looking relatives of ur patients.. hee *smiles* and PUHHHLLLEEEAAAASSSEEE stop the myth of NURSING= BLOOD. the only blood u can see MOST of the time is the same amount of blood wen u prick your finger with a needle. tats all. soooo dun associate nurses with lotsa and lotsa of blood. haa. cute. but in all i love my job. and my colleagues.

Wak last day being a free man. gonna go serve the ns kan? haa. all the best being Guards. Jangan lar dislocate tangan atau patah kaki macam si Kel. haa.. all the best Wak. its gonna be a whole lot more quieter at dome w/o him definitely. hee. \/peace.

weee gonna go Zoo with monster. yipee. so happy. cant wait cant wait.

im about done here.

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Y 1/06/2006 01:05:00 AM

so the hot season is now on. Singapore Idol. haa. here we go again. ladies get ur ply cards ready and ur voices. Make sure i see some boobies flashin tis year k! weeee.
good luck to all the cds kiddos hus entering the ting.*smiles*

why do guys get so emo-sive (is there even such words).. aniwae.. cut story short.. Its not cute tau! hee. but nvm i give him tyme... so hope he settle his emotions fast. dun take too long cause i will miss u.. chey chey chey tarching siak...~

now on conference with Fik.. Nad Bedok.. Nad and their friend.

zz and i tot i gave up conferencing.nvm once in a while. *smiles*

goooooo SG IDOL. wuahaha Bye Taufik.

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Y 1/05/2006 03:04:00 AM

memories.

so tings gonna get to a stop now rite? i hope so. enuff of running. let's jus stop and return home safely k. i love u like how i love all my gf's but tis gotta stop. ure a beautiful young kid.. u gotta stop doing tis if not all ur future gonna crash. u gotta ting far. stop tinking jus up to tomoro. ure bright. ure smart. and ure friendly. u can go far. jus get hold the brakes.. and give it a total stop now.
everyone's love u as much as they care for u.. so tat's why they are finding the only way out. rather than fearing u wud just spoil ur future.
jus hope tings are fine at home. it will i pray for u.

....

tankew so much for tryin to protect me. tryin to put me away from danger. but i learned from u. u once said that i gotta stand on my feet and fight for my right. look out for my own back. i just need u to trust me i can take care of myself. i cant keep on depending on you. Yes true u are my boyfriend. and u have the rite.. but i wanna stand alone. not be the gf who keeps running to her bf when there's trouble. you taught me how to fight.. you taught me how to be independent ... so let me be. yes im wrong shouting at u just now.. but im not the girl u use to noe last time. let me stand and watch my own back. i will still run back to u.. *smiles* but i still love u. cause ure my shadow. always there for me. *hugs*
hee tanks for accompanyin me to Clinic. and stop irritatin me! hee.

....

i wan to go zoo.

....

so see u kids tomoro. same place. different timing. *giggles*

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Y 1/04/2006 12:37:00 AM

i heart him.

i din mean to budge cause monster told me not to care about other people. but i jus need to say a few things. like it or not.. it up to u guys.

it's not her choice to stay out in the open. maybe yar wad u said was true.. fun going home to someone's place late at nite.. hanging out late till morn.. but try to put urself in her shoes. its hard living in the street. its hard changing ur lifestyle. its easy for us to say.. cause we got a home to run too.. i went it once with monster.. i noe how it feels like. she isnt my bestfriend.. not my close friend.. but she is a friend. and to see her like tat..i try to tink..wad if it happens to me? who gonna help me out if now i dun help sumone out?
try to understand her. she's tryin to adapt. it just takes time. dun tell her off like tat. no one can take it. it pressurizing enuff to cope with change and its pressurizing enuff to come from sumone she calls a sister. remember u guys brag about be there for a friend. tis is the time. its bad enuff people she use to be nice with ignoring the whole event.. there is just us.. so be there..

okie i said enuff. its notin to me and ive no rite to say.

simply put it tis way : Understanding. Patience.

tanks for the lovely evening monster. i heart u.

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Y 1/03/2006 03:09:00 AM