killing time.

tick tock tick tock. waiting for another 15 minutes before i proceed down to work. damn. its so early in da morning. guess 98% of my friends prolly having droolz all over their pillow or jus getting ready to get to bed at tis hour. fucktards. wuaha.

the water was EXTREMELY cold todae. put full blast on my heater oso no use sia. fuck sia. haha. yesterday went to Dome. with shiela and bf and also the dome peeps. then suddenli got DAUD sia. i scared sia. suddenli i miss Lan. suddenli i see Daud like cute sia. i melt sia. skali got gf oreadi lar sia. haha~ wad da fuck seh nura. then waste time at Dome then go home lar. cause todae working cannot go home so late like last time. wuaha.

then reached home tat Husni call la. no i call him cause he incoming free. so tok tok tok and then conference with nadia and shiela and then i sleep on da fone then they all angry. like tat la. nutin special la. onli tat i was so tired sia. and then wen all put down left me and him lor. i shy sia. haha~ excuse my typings arh i lazy wanna be normal. then he tok about Valentine. we tok about Valentine. i dunno sia i shy wanna ask him. but i sms him ah . good respond so far. see how k. he sweetheart la. then aiyo Boyok call lar.. ask me wether wanna be like ol times. he said i changed sia. he said i was not as caring as last time. last time i caring meh? but i told him i dun wanna be in a relationship la. cause i work tired wanna go have bf. wuahah~ wad sia me.

now putting my black socks.. cute lar my socks. so small.. to go with my stupid blistery shoes. i hate hush puppies shoes lar. they like fark. i miss zai. she not working sia todae. so no chance to luff arh todae. i jus smile lor. i jus wish this week to pass by. i wan to wait for my pay sia. got so many tings to buy.

things to buy:
new boyfriend.
new life.
new everything

wuahaha. bye lor. i wanna go work arh. i late oreadi. update nice nice. later tat kecik scold me lar come late everytime. last time i came late i give her excuse bus breaks down she believe lar. i bad sia. nvm arh mom say sometimes lies are good in a way. wuahaha. morning to all my sweethearts and tanks to all taggers. love u all~

xx[ i m a shy one ]xx

Y 1/31/2005 06:15:00 AM

Be my valentine.

just woke up. pretty much awake right now. had my breakfast prepared by shiela.
woo came back at 2am tis morning...followed Nad and family to a chalet down @ Costa Sand, pasir ris.. *pssssst: her son is H.A.W.T* wooo i loike. despite the different mats there.. (feels as though i was at an open SPARKS) we had fun eating and looking at her ONLI HAWT son. haha. *blessed* wuahaha. got home changed and Husni called and we chatted the nite away till i accidently fell asleep on da fone. sorrie ah k~ haha. 5th time i did tat to him..he understands....~

woke up todae pretty late. since work started I MISS MY SLEEP. wuargh! i miss sleeping late.. waking up late.. and then jus do noting. but now with work i cant do all that.. guess im not a certified Bummer animore. haha. i wish i cud bummed around more... no hope la.. haha~
so i just work my ass off.. make my years profitable and also get more cash and spend it all out to my needs and also erm.. for future.. if i get married lar.. bf oso dun have wanna tink about marriage.. knn sia nura.~ wuahaha. im stoopid. wuaha.

work.. aiyar wen come to updating this i dun wanna type.. i hate blogging about work. lets jus say i miss zai.. haha shes on da nite.. so im pretty much alone in the nite but okie not tat bad lar.. wad can i say.. haha~ so yeah i tink i make the fun outta it.. jus walking up and down and doin all the nurse job.. but i tink i love my job.. cant wait for my pay.. will be going out with Husni to go get his stooooooopid cat... wuahaha. furball make me cringe.~

aniwae: I GOT NO DATE FOR VALENTINE DAY~!

hu da fuck wanna be my valentine? anione? ani taker? nadia? hahhaha... im alone. shiela got herself a new bf aniwae. kental ah. he is some graffiti artist. mite be asking him to design some of my tops. hehe~! weeee.. so she got herself a date.. wad about me!! wuargh! hu wanna be my valentine? aniwae i mite be working tat day... aiyar ..then i will see couples kish kish hug hug ..hold roses.. hold teddy bears.. while me listening to some emoistic shit looking at them with great jealousy in my uniform~ how sucky can a teenage girl get?...pretty sucky for me tho.. its the max oreadi lar.~ i shall leave it to god to send me some hunks with wings~ hehe please make my wish come true. wuargh!

rarr rarr... just helped out a friend having some relationship problem.. its jus the return of the ex's... damn.. i met an ex in the train on the way to work.. was walking home with Lan knn.. haha. then skali in the train my heart throb from the past la. fuckadey. haiz. he stared at me but i just see it thru as tho he is not there.. gave me a message telling me he was in front of me and i replied.. okay. i missh him~ he noes tat too.. but he played me out. well stop at J.E and i told Lan to hold my hands.. haha he din wan to! cause he said im from work later he get infected with disease.. sometimes i dunno issit me or issit him tat stupidity gets to a new level~ haiz hahah. in the end he did aniwae .. and i jus look at the EX and gave him the most IM-SAD-U-LEFT-ME-AND-STILL-AM-SAD kinda look~ haha. im pathetic. tanks Lan. i told him about wad happen and he went.. yeah~~~knn arh tat boy.

i still mish my serangkais <3>shidada: tanks for everything from the begining. still remember wen i first saw u. i was like FUCK WHO IS SHE!? haha tak lah.. i forgot wad i thought wen i saw u at first.. mwaks..but lucky i get to noe u.. hope u and mr beefy be together forever k. and have a wonderful relationship. mwaks. tanks for being an angel to me. *huggies*

Farz: ko kental arh minah~ haha with ur MEOW ringtone..u r becoming more and more like doink. belo with looks. haha. mish u.. and tanks for the pats and hugs and advices u gave me wen im down. despite the dispute u guys had between crews and wadever... u still willing to hold on to the serangkai..never wanting it to be in trouble. even tho crew and crew dissed each other.. or even crew breaks up.. remember.. serankais will always be the one hu stand up tall k~ *huggies*

Nadia: im not gonna do the NAD URE MY NUMBER 1 shit.. haha cause I AM NUMBER 1 haha~ u have been my friends since 3 years ago. it all started out from STARES in the bus. minah lu garang arh! haha. and then we became friends. haiz. it was a sweet memories isnt it. wen thru ups and downs together. stood by each other. i tink i will make u my valentine hahaha provided ure not taken. wuahaha. mwaks *huggies*

hehe. mebe going out todae. see how lar if i got the mood. damn.
havent taken my shower. . so yeah i wanna go bath lar. hot lar the weather. wad a sunday. left few more hours for me to indulge it before im going back to work! woo. work sucks.. u can hate it and love it at the same time. *smiles*

xx[ life's never fair ]xx

Y 1/30/2005 02:09:00 PM

Emotions.

argh..dunno wether im pissed or am i too tired. mebe im tired. wuaha.went to dome just now. shiela and new bf were there. took some pics. so yeah. later he pass.

note:
to those involve in the tinggy:

cmmon la.. u guys get all emo over tis fucking things. somehow it makes me feel as tho HE is much more important than ur own friends? getting all emo cause he attached. kiwek. i din mean to be rude but TINK lar.. pissing off and then throwing tantrums towards ur friends. it jus aint rite. if u really wanna matter guys more then i wudnt wanna be the one comforting and in the way of wadever u are doing. i hate being thrown around and being left out wen u guys are pissed off.. especially if its cause a guy. damn!...get a life..he aint the onli guy.. GET OVER IT.. ps: ure jus making him feel proud tat u guys are fiting over him~ cmmon la.. dun make a fool outta urself~
sheesh~

i miss my serangkais. i dunno wad happened. eventho they say its still there i feel like we are just normal friends now. farking shit. haha. but nvm i still love them tho.. eventho im up with work and stuff i still take time off to be with them. mwaks. hope we can still be close like last time <3

aite im sleepy. so i tink i go sleep. nitey nite!

Y 1/27/2005 11:44:00 PM

the black thread that binds.

woo.. jus got back from work. got to the ward. pretty excited seeing Zai. yes same ward as her. pretty simple layout and i tink i can make it. we will see how. haha. well its sometin im gonna do for like the next 45 years? or so... haha. we shall see.

got back home and lay down in bed wen mom ask me wether wanna go get dinner at the pasar malam so dragged myself and got myself those japanese salmon pancake kinda ting. *wink at Lina* haha kan aku cakap aku makan tu.. and messaged Judd about tomoro. well if i dun have my batch kiddos i tink life for me during these days gonna be lame. hehe. *smiles*

din go to dome. im getting really tired off nowadays. yesterdae slept thru the nite. silent nites im having. less on the net and fone. slept thru the nite. got up late jus now but made it in time. i saw Daud early morning. said hi's and bye's and suddenli i miss Lan. he called me during work but i was working cudnt answer. *sigh* its happening again. shudnt have trust him. nvm.

well miss my red hair. its all black now. i look like some good kids. some obedient stay home kinda peeps. haha.

im lazy to blog. dun expect much updates aite. im too lazy now.

xx[ working class lady ]xx

Y 1/26/2005 10:28:00 PM

Green Combo.

work. simple word = new. i din wanna blaber much about work. jus tat it sucks and its gonna be more sucky in times to come. wuaha. but i loike the peeps. wee.

wore a green suite. i look like a fucking cabbage walking around singapura. wuaha. farktard. i seem so retard. i tink i am.. no i am.. at least now i got mate to go work with. so no worries. yey. *smiles*

i totally forgot wad i wanna update. dayum. haish. my brain's dead and im freaking tired. Haiyo.

gotta sleep tomoro work. woo

Y 1/24/2005 09:41:00 PM

Im a God-Mother.

my bestfriend in sec-skool gave birth to a beautiful baby boy for me. haha. no la. im his mak angkat hehe. i loike. never met the baby yet cause busy and my fren need to get some possible rest. hehe see my baby boy soon aight. cute. congratulations to u Lynn and if ure having probs always holla me k. im sorry of wad happen but u stay strong and be a single mom. SUPER MOM! haha.

telling me all sorts of tings during pregnancy. making me more frightened to get pregnant. bodoh ah kau. haha. but seeing a small guy coming outta ur big belly is satisfying. haiz. some day i wish i can hold a pure soul in my arms.. LEGALLY ah. haha.

22.01.2005 ( Saturday)

went to Platform 5. eventho SGP:FUNK got a bit of crash but its all good. they put up a brave front. kuddos. and oso to LDC for the superb dope show. congrats to the two crew. it was a fun day UNTIL some ting jus happened. fuck. i hate people with TANTRUMS. fucking dun throw it at me ah. fucking selfish. dun tink about urself. we came as a group we go home as a group ah. sheesh~ pissed. then went to meet back Nad and have LJS. and have a flirty good time with Becue. wuahaha. paisey siak. until now i feel so embarassed. wuahaha. but i Loike. embarassing lar they all.. then hung around Plaza Singapura and cig away and took pics. superb. wuahaha. and then the rest had to go home (Nas.Dil.Shahrul.Shidah. and her friend) dunno her name dun care oso. wuahhah! and then we proceed down town from PS.. (me.Nad.shiela.Nis.Naqiah and Bf) fucking nuisance lar shiela naqia and nadia. haha they were like peeps high on Marijuana. luffing and stopping every 100metres walk. then luff again. its like a show put on repeat. so yeah tats how we walk down town. then went to cineleisure to meet up my IRC MATE ..barney. cute guy tok and then we went to YP saw flexx and he was dancing. and then went to a corner for some wild turkey. wuahha~ we had fun before proceeding home. it was definitely a TIRING but fun day. then called up Lan and we tok for like hours. hehe. then slept . tired like fark and TEMP have to spoil my sleep by calling me so early. ahha. but i enjoyed the conversation k. (",)
...psst i like Los Singkanos. *shy* eh wait i dun like them i like.. *bleep* wuahah~ i tink i got a crush on u boy! wuahaha.

23.01.2005

listening to some stupid songs. im still dead tired. mite be going to 7-11 to get some redbull. i dun tink i can survive. i hafta wake up early. well at least early. following days i gotta wake up FREAKING EARLY. wuahah. damn i hate it man. but i gotta work. gotta support my fam. gotta support ma self. so yeah. and im confused of where to meet the superior. haha. i will act blur lar tomoro. gotta dye my hair black again *sobs sobs* bye to my red streaks. wuargh! well it wont be tat bad aniwae. at least i can put tings off my mind. tings tat happens and all shits tat ive been doing. so yeah work is the onli solution. *smiles* now im a working class lady. *blueks* hehe~ so proud. pretty excited cause all my friends.. the ladies. if u remember. those hu i go club with every week the last time..all of them are working at the same place. and im excited cause at last reunited with the old clan. and i bet im gonna turn back to the ol times. wuahaha.but wadever i wont forget where i felt belong before tis.. i wont forget my serangkais and the civic dome peeps. *wink* tanks for the endless friendships especially my baby gyals in serangkais. i love u three.~ hehe. sorrie if i did anitin wrong.
Note to shida: i dun blame u for wad happen yesterday k.

ironed my clothes. wuahah prepared my notebook. its not skool tinggy animore its now real work. tats wad frighten me. im actually a proper nurse. hehe. yey! yey! gonna meet new peeps new ward new doctors and new people. SGH here i come!

xx[ old scar ]xx

Y 1/23/2005 07:35:00 PM

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI

bye. gotta go have a feast. bye

Y 1/21/2005 03:02:00 PM

The Appetizers. *yummy-licious*

damn tis Star World. letting me watch all tis kinda shows. tat leave me wanting every piece of them *rarr*. they are H-A-W-T la. damn Hawt. but too bad my favourite dude was eliminated. so no point watching the show. heart pain. wuahah.
My Favourite Models. (fantasize)
My Favourite


*sizzle* damn damn damn. *faints*

doing nutin jus decided to surf on babies and manhunt models. got my PLATFORM 5 tickets. at last i din have to trouble maself finding the money. mom gave it to me and sister. so yeah got the tix oreadi. now the ting left to TINK about is wad to wear and who to meet up to go with. never mind let them plan. there to support SGP:FUNK and Lyrical Deity Crew fo' sure.. shiela gona support her besties Khairul.. haha Royal Pham. woot woot. boo! haha.

tomoro hari raya haji. auntie called me up asking me to sleep over tonite. but dunno lar later mebe. see how. hehe Weeee tomoro gonna go auntie house and delish on her cookings. long time since i last tasted her home cook dishes. wee. gonna see all my sedara(s) ..sux.. but wad the heck.

cant wait for monday. where i will be working. damn i hate it lar actually. peeeft.

Good Lucks To My Friends In Platform 5.

xx[ yummy delicious man ]xx

Y 1/20/2005 01:53:00 PM

the broken teen.

well just got back yesterday from a chalet by a friend. me and nad went over.laughed so hard in the bus.. at the interchange.. making fun of everything onli to realise tat was my last luff of happiness... damn.
onli those around me noes wad actually happens...(onli Nad arh..and shidada cause i told her)... suffering from regrets...guilt... and loss. but then i tried to put tings back to its normal way..but as shidada said yesterdae "everything's not gonna be the same" yeah and tats the truth.. but.. i reallly dunno wad to do..

starting work soon and mom make me study my whole practises back. making me read every pointers. damn. she wasnt like tis wen i was taking my real EXAMS haha. now starting work then giving me all this pressure. she terbalik lar. and she took away my hp as she ask me to use home phone for three days. so yeah dumb people hu call me and cant get thru..pls call my home. and then she prohibited me from surfing and playing the net for the next three days too...its suppose to be "StuDY day" for me. lame lar but wad to do.. she is my mom.

not sure going to platform 5 or not. im cashless. see how lar.. not confirm.. mebe buy at the door oso can rite. see how lar.. its not always i getta see my friend performing on stage. so might go.. gotta dig out ten bucks man ARGH ARGH ARGH ...so yeah mite be mite not.. aniwaes good luck to the two crews. *smiles*

so tired and sleepy now. been away for a day so yeah missed my bed so much. went to see Bapok with Nad early morning. haha. she ah.. was glueing her eyes on every trans tat passed by us. exciting seh. but then gorgeous like hell arh some of them. dressed in soooo short lar the skirt. if got flood oso they wont get wet..dun worry.. haha and some in like small pieces of clothes. damn. we watched as the nite of the "bapok changi" lured into the streets.. sitting by the road.. waiting for their customers. some were dropped by their clients.. guess they already got the cash and had fun.. and still waiting for another customer.. haha old.. young.. chinese.. all kinda races.. taxi drivers!! haha. fun fun fun before we head back and went to sleep!

how much ive learned tat im such a gullible lil freak..believing every single ting people say and in the end getting hurt myself. tis year i crumbled more than ive crumbled in the past years. accidents and accident back to back occured to me. shall i cry...well i do everytime but it still happens.. so much i wanna it to change.. i wan some happiness in my life and my days. i dun wanna have any other incidents to occur. its bringing me down day by day. and i wanna start work ASAP... so i can forget about everitin and mebe start a new life as a working lady. putting mind off from all tis tings.. i hope i have a brighter day..
....and tats wen i will finally smile.

xx[ karma: wad goes around comes around ]xx

Y 1/18/2005 09:38:00 AM

Sky Is The Limit.


been thru the worst day yesterdae. but onli for a short while. a huge impact came tumbling to me. the news. its too tuff to be 'cepted but as i sat one corner with all my friends.. i learnt.. if it's meant to be this way then im gonna fucking let it have it's way. i aint worth my time. my tears. and my worries. so yeah mebe u succeed in making me crumble for a min..but aint gonna crumble me forever.. cause im a tuff chiq tats why they call me Nurara. *smiles*

went to collect my uniform yesterdae. got lost at raffles place while wanting to retrieve shiela work cheque. wen we got to raffles the woman said come on down to somerset. we were like WTF. fuck u whore. wuahaha. and then we took the train back and got off at somerset. the place was AWESOME. surrounded by posh restaurants. the kind where they serverd u plain cold chill water even in those fanciful champagne-like glasses. and u have to eat prim and proper and dess code: ANITIN BESIDES THE WAY TEENAGERS WEAR NOW. haha. smart. and formal. aniwae in the place tat we gotta go GOT HUGE GIANT sizes of life-size plush toys of Monster Incs. Garfield.. nemo.. everything. so exciting. haha. cudnt stop asking shiela too see tat see tis see tat... wuahaha. i loike the place. if onli i can work in there. everytin is so cuddly cute and HUGE. damn!
then took a cab to SGH and collected my uniform and then met Mika (do they still call her tat?) and she huged me. I SWEAR she wanted to cry so much. me too. i missed those bitches. wahaha~

then got back to woodlands @ 2pm in the afternoon. got sometin to eat. actually went to get sumtin to eat. met up with Tsunami Zul and Shidada first. and then went to eat.
tings happened:

CDS held their opening meeting
(Leader : Jibby hehe Najib Asst.Leader: Akmal)
LDC session
SGP FUNK session
meet-shahrul-day

tings are tiff between our two emcee crew. can sense tat. even people hu dun noe can realise tat. cmmon.. i aint gonna set my heart and side either one. we are after all friends.. jus like Nad say yesterday.. if u wanna diss and battle or be competitive with them.. they are still our friends.. remember we once said
"biar jiwa kawan .. jangan jiwa crew"
cause in the end..friends are the one gonna pat ur back and acknowledge every single ting u have done.
so cmmon smile and remember whoever is better is nothin compared to someone hu truly cares for their friendship. so tink aight guys!

after a few weeks of shit..mamat called me up. asked me wanna attend a chalet. well... i will see on how.. cause after everythin happens.. i wudnt wanna be tat girl who sits curl up crying and making her friends in a spot where they have to constantly console me.. enuff of tat time. gotta get up and move forward. will get back to him mebe.

been reading tis WARTIME books. poor kids diary of wad happen and wad they view and experience thru the war time. Germany-War-Time. it was cruelity and i can feel how they feel jus by reading wad they written according to their experiences. some of the diaries were retrieved under rubbles of fallen buildings after the war.. and some din even get to finish their diaries and were sent to be executed..murdered. and some merely survived. some witness own parents being shot to death. poor people going thru all this shits. on looking on the way im living. i have never been any greatful. if i were to be in a war... i wud be dead. i never wanna be in their spot..its jus too scary.. i look up to all this children with great respect.
** deepest memories of wars and its victims **

mom cook a wonderful dish todae after WEEKS of not cooking. she dish out sumtin wonderful. hehe. tanks at last a proper HOME COOK FOOD.

cudnt believe tat performers gotta fork out 40 bucks on their own for the tix. seriously tis is wad i feel.. SG HIPHOP seriously is making a fool outta all this pure talented performers. its noting about the moral of wanting audience to come and support.. its all bout the mindset. u can NEVER promote and expect excellent support from public thru CASH and MONEY. its all up to the Sg'ians wether they wanna be part of the event or not.. a compulsory 40/- bucks from performers are bad.. where they gonna dish out tat cash man.. and if tis continues.. believe me.. one day wen u wanna held an event.. not a single crew will be interested... support is not all about money.. its about the passion and the love for wad ure doing and wad u wanna see.. i aint notin to do with the hiphop scene but seeing my friends all 9 of them to be struggling to fork out tat huge amount of cash each person in jus a 1 day notice is BAD. if u cant sell and make money then u gotta accept it.. success comes with failures.. and they will always come in risks.. but not all will turn out bad.. cmmon give them a chance aight.

woohoo gonna do sumtin to my black top todae.. jeng jeng jeng... we'll see the results..

xx[ Peace out N town ]xx

Y 1/15/2005 04:46:00 PM

Kiss me.

cute ah the pic. the girl erm..ting..she..erm it.. i dunno wad to call it. *sheesh* aniwae *THE THING* instructing the *MALE THING* to kiss wen she/it pouts its/her mouth like tat.. haha look the reaction the male species gave. haha cam siak tol. it happens almost 5 outta 10 guys. those gundu gundu geeky nerdy *duuno-anitin-about-kiss* kinda people. excluding those perv's ..those u ask for a kiss and they got their hands down ur shirt. wuahahaha. no wonder i like geeks. they are just..cute.. *smiles*

now its like 08.23 am and im so dead tired. seriously im so sleepy. shitless sleepy but i gotta wake up to follow shiela get her cheque or issit sumtin like tat? i donno. but for sure i need to collect my uniform at the same time. so yeah no worries. she still zzzz-ing now. got a message from Nad asking me to come online once im awake. and now im here she is nowhere. prolly sleeping lar that gerl. wuahahha k-n-n suruh orang masok dia gi tido. bahalol lar. but nvm..jus gimme ani other time k.

woke up with a bliss todae.. grandpa is over at my crib tis morning and i got cash jus for going out of my room to look hu came early in the morning. living never been easier. if onli we can get money jus by doin tat. no work no nothing. wuahahha besh siol! haha. gotta go to town library..*orchard library* to get some new stuff to read. and reminds me.. i forgot to ask my mom send my library book todae.. wah kaoz. haiya.
gotta go return it myself. i read 3/4 books finish. im good..

gonna meet Nad later for her session. having it somewhere in woodlands CC? cool. mite ring her up later. so after the whole thinggy accomplished..mite go and see some SGP FUNK session. wuahaha.
LiL dispute going with LDC and shits. alar..u guys are friends after all...before being competitive..hating each other.. or dissing each other .. jus remember..:
One Squad
One Lepak Crew (huahauaha)
One RC
we all sit and luff together.. jus remind urself tat after all... we are still friends aight.. *smiles*

Good Luck Two Crew For Platform 5... woohoo!

im bored lar... my dad come back oreadi. okie lar wanna go take my MORNING shower and then get ready. i'll see ya wen i see ya... \/ im out.

note to self: still missing him. *sobs sobs*

*******************************************
It's crazy but i'm falling apart,
It's crazy how your leaving me scarred,
It's crazy boy wherever you are,
You stole, my heart...
It's crazy but I'm going insane,
Feeling lost confused and ashamed,
It's crazy, hope your feeling my pain,
You stole, my heart...
*******************************************
xx[ never be replaced ]xx

Y 1/14/2005 08:20:00 AM

Past historic memories.

woke up a bit earlier than me normally wake up. me tink about 2 minutes earlier. *proud*.. havent shower yet. jus finish cleaning up me house and room. spic and span. a bit tired so jus chill out here first. swept and wash dishes. woo. so cinderella man~! then mom have to direct tis direct tat.."eyyy do tis do tat do tis now.." in the mother-ly naggy voice tat sumtimes make u wish u were deaf. but me did it aniwae... well wad can i say.. a good daughter.~ wuahahha~

well i gave up reading the bermuda triangle story for a while cause too many words just got stuck in me brain. me wonder how people hu put their nose into books 247 can take in so much...well me got a cramp brain now.. no wonder i land in ITE hahaha. i put me nose into people's business rather than books. well i like it tat way.. books arent me cup of tea. but the story is good so prolly reading again later.

did the same ol conferencing tinggy with Nadz and her friend. nice lad. nice to chat with. laffing about "babi hutan" ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH.. suker?suker? wuahahha! k-n-n lar tis nadia. woo. then her batt low.. leave me alone with the guy.. there was a minute silence and then i said " OKIE BYE " and he laff and said " BYE " and we hung up. wuahhahah im bad at ending talks with sumone i dono~ haha so tats the way tat i always do. then after tat got very very tired and went to zzz cudnt wait till 4am.. sorry Rizal...sorry i cudnt stay up tat late.. over slept hahahaa.. sorry la k! woo.

mom and dad went to get food sumwhere outside. dun bother to noe. dad going to the soccer match between Singapore and Indonesia. yeah the tix are sold out. Dad was dancing around the house. further more he got it for free.. damn.. was suppose to have a family feast/gathering tat dae but cause of him cant be there and no one to drive us over to aunty house everything was canceled. wuahaha. YEs YEs.

listening to some rufio tunes now. and some of yellowcard. need some emo punkrockish screamo.. all tat in my life now. haha. i dunno why. jus decided to ditch my reggae shits aside first. woo.
A lot of people changing blog links nowadays. shall or shall i not? i lazy wanna go change the links lar and then inform everyone. damn. lazy like fark lar dey. mebe arh one day wen i tink of a nice blogspot name to put.. at the time being i wanna put "insert-own-title-here-mudafuckers.blogspot.com" wahahaha.. nvm lar.. soon aite.

SGP FUNK having their session again todae. but todae @ CCK. bored lar wanna go sumwhere but tat one too far lar.. so giving it a miss.. awww cannot see Far crazy acts.. wuahahha ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH! hahaha.. tomoro need to go to Outram Park to get my uniform.. woooooooooooohoooooooooooooo! and then follow shiela go collect her cheque and then mebe meet Nadz up to follow her go catch her Idol.. Taufik Basah.. down town.. she ah... taufik....wad so great about him... aiyo! girls with cute guys.. i admit i do like cute guys but not those typical cutesy mutesy yucky guys.. i like those different..those near to the geeky side.. hu dun have to look good to be cute.. heheh i like geekers *slurps*... hehehe

chatting with tis anak Sadon... samad..irritatin lar tat mudafucker.. wuahahhaha.

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Baby I love you..And i Never let you Go..
BUt If i Have To Boy I think You SHud Noe..
All The Love we Made can Never Be Erase
and I Promise You Tat yoU will Never Be Replaced..
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sigh. to him. i tot i can go..i cant. im weak.

xx[ crucified heart ]xx

Y 1/13/2005 01:57:00 PM

Happy on da outside..Sad on da inside. Unsure emotions.

*yawn*..dunno why i still feel sleepy besides the cold shower i had todae tis morning. try to act tuff and had a DAMN chilly shower. it strucks me strait to me bones man. me regret. wuahaha. well still had not take me break & lunch. mommy stirring up sumtin in the kitchen. wudnt bother to peek. me will wen its ready *wink wink*

The Day Before Today..yesterday lar tu:

met nadz and shiela to go to the library. i love library. cause they have cute guys hiding in everycorner.. whispering to their friends.. cute guys indulging their daily dosage of reading books... and even cute guys standing next to u surveying books. i love the library. *grinz*
cute guys gala .. woo. i borrowed 6 books

Nura: 21 Years Of Singapore Zoological Gardens (dun ask me why)
The Mystery Of The Bermuda Triangles (scary shit lar)
Thailand and Asia (photography book)
Children Of Wars (havent read)
Shiela: Love Is Blind ( sheeesh lame fawk)
extra: Hiphop-tionary.. damn!!! haha its FOR NAD not me k. i dun go YO YO WADDAP shit. haha. *wink at nad* but i love her tho..!

then after tat met Far.. and then went to see Nadz and Dub MuSiQue haf their session. all were there... then it was ENTERTAINMENT NITE with Far.. hahah crazy lar tat mudathuna... wanting to learn to skank.. hahahha he arh.. very the lepak sia.. see him the first time tot like the quiet quiet lame ol guy.. skali datang gila dia... hahha CLASSIC ARH ur MAT GANJA act! i like arh!! cool cool! haha hope to hear crazy stuff from u man! haha.. and then abang abang ITE CDS datang lar... hahahha all abang abang seh! cool cool.. then went home.. tired but Rizal call so yeah tok to him... about Kutu.. i dunno why but he likes to tok nonsense.

spent the nite away reading my book.. was reading the bermuda triangle shit. scary stuff.... i tot read book can put me to sleep but it keeps me awake .. sucks...
had tis weird conference tinggy with Nad and Shiela and supposingly 3 Unknown Guys.. but in the end... outta 3 ...2 of the guys we noe... hahhaaha stoopid lar.. its mamat..shiela ex flame and roi skinhead lar.. da bois guitarist.. damn~ wad a small world after all~
tok till quite late and then went back to reading ma book.. hehe cool shit lar im reading. ! woo.

mebe todae not gonna go down to dome. stay home. rizal chef asked me out jus now accompany him go library to check stuff out for his upcoming Menu. but i lazy i just went so mebe nex time. and i wudnt wanna sit there and watch him browse thru recipes and copy down 35 menu(s) .. LAZY LAR BOY! hahahhah kwang kwang kwang.. nex time k darl... he sweet lar.. always playin around with my dad name! woo... cook me up a brownie boy! hehe

still tinking of him. seriously never a day passed without me missing him wishing him to be part of me.. but now.. heheh but i hope he noes im not a bit happy without him.. but like him.. move on.. but in my heart there is always a scar... his name...~ mishing u deep deep.. heheheh dah lar nura stop it siak~

woot woot ... Wot Wot Wot? say WOT? hehe

xx[ crucify my heart ]xx

Y 1/12/2005 02:37:00 PM

There she lays broken inside.

wad a windy morning. slept late again yesternite. din have anitin to do so watched Diney Channel all the way till 3.30am. after tat zzz all the way... but woke up jus in time todae to clean ma house just before my mother come back. so yeah all done and here i am infront of the pc.

well going to library later on with shiela maybe. shidada cudnt make it.. sumting wrong with her gum?or issit her tooth? or.. i dunno.. i was half zzz-ing and half awake wen she message me. will check it later again.hehehe. had ma breakfast and then now getting ready to go out. still pending and pondering on wad books to borrow. i like to read books but i hate searching for it. damn. hate it hate it.

aniwae besides the fact i update almost everyday.. onli one entry will be post on this main page.. so if wanna read my PAST EVERYDAY entry..go clicking away on the archive on da rite k. dun shy shy.. go go go click away~ weeee.

gonna go get ready now. if not i will have less time to search for books. damn i hate searching. haiya!!!

xx[ *skank* its a pity *skank* ]xx

Y 1/11/2005 02:31:00 PM

who have the key to the wounded heart?

listening to some reggae tunes. need to ease ma mind. need to loosen my muscles. need to rest ma body. see reggae songs do come in handy.. well @ least for me.
Shamrasta called me up just now.. haha asked me to let him listen to a song. luffing his ass off. member happy lar i got the song. HRC sumtime? nah i passed. mebe wen im really ready for it again aite boy? tanks for the offer tho dude.~ *smiles*

Nadz holla me up to follow her crew to their session. nah its okie k sweetie. mebe sum other time. mebe tomoro meet ya up aite? hehe. mish ya and zee aniwae.
Guess where Shidada been making her new stress-relief place? haha LIBRARY lar. haha. mite be going to the library tomoro. besides the fact tat my mom is a librarian. I NEVER stepped into the library..well a few times to use its toilet tho.. but to read a book up? nah din..never.. so yeah mite be going in there to survey some books. had a book in mind.. jus now saw it on Oprah Winfrey show.. *targets* mite be logging on the net less.. wanna pick up reading..
*** Certified BookWorm ***

playing a game of chess with Samad belo. its bad. eventho i am leading.. but im getting lamer at jokes.. im telling jokes like samad. damn! no it cant be. he is an ass i am not. woo. FIRST TIME i ever won a chess msn game. damn im good! wee i feel like a GOD playing with samad... chess tat is -_-

at least todae conversation wasnt tat bad. wad he said is true. life got to move on, well at least he apologize about how he reacted.. and he ask me to smile and call him if anitin.. well cant blame him its gonna take a long time to forgive and forget but.. wadever it is.. to see him happy will make me smile. yeah do mish him.. but then again.. as he say... move on... *smile* but i will still wait... till the time comes..

okie IT IS getting boring with the game of chess im having.. oh yeah happi skooling to Tsunami.. Shidada Beefy Boyfriend ZulHELMI and SAMAD and all those first year ITE. proud of u guys. hope u guys look smart being abang2 chey chey chey... zaman ite dah lepas lar ehhh *winks at Nad* haha. i haf tis friend hu is scary looking. have piercing on all his face and he got tis weird contact lens tat make his iris (the white part) all white and a small dot (tat is his supposely pupils) well.. it can onli be done by CONTACTS... freaking the hell outta me... pretty scary but nice chap.. hmmm people with weird styles.

mom 247 hogging the computer ever since the game was installed upon her request. less time for us more time for her.. damn haha. well its getting irritating. but wad the heck.. tat will keep her shhhhh for a while.

gonna enjoy my chess victory.. well he just suck.. and i dun (onli with samad i dun lose) haha~

conversation i had with SIN:

me: how many colours does a star have?
sin: 16 million pixels in them...
me: okay.
sin: why?
me: jus feel like asking sumone like you..
sin: im talking rubbish..im talking shit (either one i forgot lar..shud be shit)
me: everyone noes tat.

hahahha sin and his stoopid tots.

xx[ dun feel sorry for me ]xx

Y 1/10/2005 09:59:00 PM

miserable.

jus got up. woke up seeing mum online playin tis latest craze amongst my aunties "Bejewelled". cool game. had a go at it too. i like the sound effects.
todae is the onli day i wish everything was normal. my feelings.. my days.. my life.. but it still the same ol ting. i cried today. yeah i did. i hate it. *sigh* why cant i jus go ahead and live my life like all those people out there. it just aint the same.

getting sumone to hate u is so much pain. especially sumone u truly love. life is never fair.

fetching mom from work later. now left to clean the kitchen. no plans todae to go out. sucky day. saw the match of singapore and indonesia yesterdae. surprisingly they won but then dad was giving all this theory tinggy about why singapore can win.
"Indonesia owes a lot to Singapore in helping out with the tsunami victim la"
tis is wad he says. hahaha dad and theories.

sumtin ur wish can come and not come true. but now i pray tat my wish comes true. onli those close to me noes. *smiles*

got no mood to blog..actually got nutin to blog.
WHOA i coughed and my whole clump of phlegm flew out. stuck on to my comp screen. GROSS like fark lar. haiz hahah! but style..like those spiderman tinggy.

burn uberteddy.. but i wont.. cause.. it makes me smile wen im down.

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Sumtin's breaking up... i feel like giving up...
I wont walk out until you know....
Here i GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my ONLY ONE
i've let go.. there just no one who gets me like you do
you are my.. my ONLY ONE...

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xx[ against all odds ]xx

Y 1/09/2005 01:02:00 PM

nobody's home.

spend the day yesterday @ shidada crib. LDC strutting their stuffs. having their sessions. cool stuff. i like their beat.. its all reggae-ish... *smiles*
it was a bit tuff cause expect some stuff yesterday but din turn out as planned. had a heart to heart tok with shidada. gave me her opinion on wad's going on. tanks eh.
met shiela 2 new friends. cool guys. nice to meet the both of you. din spend the day with Nad and Farz. they with their own crew down at CCK. din get to join them. Good Luck in getting ur flow aite?...
@ 12+ am haha Nad call me up. LOCKED OUT. haha so gotta crash at my crib. yeah. stayed up listening to their beat. and then farz pen-ed down her flow. haha skali bad news..tukar beat. buat penat jer korang. wuahahah~ then at 4am i crashed on the bed and *snore snore* away. somehow it feels good to noe tat u got friends to accompany u thru out ur days. cause at least wen u sit all alone u noe there is always someone u can holla @ or sms to. and for me.. i got the 3 best biatch(s) on earth.. haha muaks and i got the best playas ever.. *wink at the guys* haha tanks CDS peeps. its never better being part of u guys eventho u guys broke up just remember tat Friends and Crew is never the same. Crew can break up.. Friendship never will.. *wink*
woooo im a P.I.M.P-Cess... hahah~ siak siak~

i wonder if he stills read my blog. he can move forward so fast. im struggling my days thru.. onli to see him already smiling.. i wonder if he still tinks and even miss me? hmmm i oso dunno. but of wad my friends told me.. if he dun show interest.. its wasting of time for me clapping on one side. but i do miss him a lot. but i tink he need his freedom. but so many tings i wanna share with him.. i wanna tell him but its different now. well indeed they say.. it was never true love until u get married. *sigh*

Serangkai(s) except me went to Youth Park todae. hope they have a nice time. have the Platform 5 Meeting for them. LDC and DUB MUSIQUE.. ohhhhh come on make me proud!!! haha. excited sia. jantung DEGAP DEGUP siol! haha. weeee gonna be at Planet Paradigm. woo. saper nak ikot? hiphop pon hiphop lar.. nak support kawan peh pasal arh beb~ HAHAH!
Alahai... Shidada internet connection down. so less one blog to read. boring. hope u reconnect soon k.

its been raining since yesternite. was so damn cold my room. we had to switch off the damn aircon. as usual wen peeps crash my crib i will end up on da floor. aniwae its nutin new. i EVERYDAY sleep on the floor. the bed is jus too.. erm.. comfy. chey cam real. but yeah i prefer the low side..rather the bumpy side. *grinz* well as per normal.. i forgot.. FYI peeps.. if u realise EVERY NEW YEAR u start ur skool year.. january.. it will always be a rainy season. December-January is the monsoon season.. CHEY geog bitch lar me. haha. yeah so Feb u will have a HELL OF A HOT time. woo! haha summer mah~

change my blog. tired of the old skin. i told u i got sick of reggae skin fast. woo.
okie lar gotta go clean ma room. i need cash man.. where do i start with.. cant wait to buzz off to work nex two weeks. counting down on da calendar. woohoo~! nurse i am.. nurse i will be.

PlatForm 5 Participants:
Double Ruzty
Tha Theori'Z
Verballistics
Phlowmazzie
Basement1
Rapturize
Influence
Fordafite
Dsyfunk Lunacy
Chillakaz
Vella Tri
PhD
Will's Invasion
Lyrical Deity
Farhan 42
Sticky Icky
2Ways
Supreme One
B Cube
45 Projects
Essence of Dopeness
Fatal Phantomz
SGP Funk
Dominant Knights
Oracle Phlow
Velvet Groove
Boun-cif
Starlexia
Ridzwan
Royal Pham

be there aite.. hehe~

Y 1/08/2005 03:00:00 PM

haha the serangkai's ah.. haha

pooh bear : Me Me Me *kiut lar dia*
tigger: Nadz *Kecoh Arh Lu Minah*
Eeyore: Shidada*Blur Biatch*
Piglet: Farzeeee *babi kau*

wuahahhaha. found tis pic and the bond they had is like i have with my serangkai. but its onli 4 of us. <3 dem so much.

well some how my whole entry disappeared. fuck. stoopid sia tis blogger.

no mood to blog.

everyone skank to the rythm of the soulful rasta beat. and remember ur love one before they are gone.. mine have..

xx[ lame fuck life ]xx

Y 1/05/2005 02:16:00 PM

tinking: angel with broken wings

bad days.. bad week.. bad events.. been shedding tears for the last three days. been full of emotions for the last three days. oh god.. i wish i was never in this state. *sigh* full or regrets and full of tears. losing the angel you loved really hurts. haiz.

tankew to shidada..nadia..farz and zul. tankew for being there.
Nadz: tanks for making sure i am alrite. i love you girl. and tanks for the sorrowful pats.

shidada: tanks for wanting to be by my side. tanks for the shoulder for me to cry on. and tanks for the endless advices and wishes you had for me. it means a lot. i love you too.

zul: tanks for making me smile. tanks for wanting me to forget and make me luff. you still owe me 60 cents. *smile*

farz: eventho u cant be here to be with me.. but tanks for the messages. tanks for the warmth you gave me thru ur sms. love you baby gerl.

onli these people truly noes how much i loved him. and i still do. haiz. but i hafta move on. it sucks but i hafta. tanks once again friends.

new year for me sucks. lost someone i love. but gained someone who i lost so long ago.
met kirin @ PS. i missed tat god damn girl! *sigh* i cried on her. i hope she forgets everyting. wishes goes out to her wen she going to Vernice. haffun aite young lady! mwaks.

ps: i still need him.

xx[ its all goodbye now ]xx

Y 1/04/2005 06:23:00 PM

...... HAPPY NEW YEAR ......

2005.. yeah we reached it in a blink of an eye. so fast with yet so many memories. sad sweet and blunt memories. from heartbreaking moments of ex's to meeting beautiful friends hu loves u and cares for u.. to the tragedy Tsunami... no regrets jus full of happiness and tanks to all my friends.. people.. family hu make my life a living hell!!! wuahaha.

Resolution:

not to have animore resolutions from 2005 onwards. *smiles*

aniwae new year was a blast. hope all of u enjoyed ur new year. and dun forget to throw all those bad habits in 2005. a brand new year!~
startin back to work real soon. a countdown to work. students heading back to skool. now its back to facing reality and not wastin time playing around. hehe. i will be a working class lady now. wooooo I ROCK! wooo!

met Bella twice. I miss her seriously! seriously i miss her! argh. hope she is doing fine in wad she is doing. woo!

hmm dum dee dum...hmmm noting to blog.

i miss uberjoe. i miss shidada. i miss nadz. i miss farz. and i miss my friends!

xx[ brand new year brand new life ]xx

Y 1/01/2005 08:47:00 PM