yet another nice day.

went with monsta to man's workplace and sgh. we sucks. we took weird pics. hee.

then met Nad and Dada ( i was pondering to call u Da or DADA now? since im bored of shidada) then went to Lucky Plaza to play pool which we din in the end.
tis is the onli sucky part. (the clan tinggy) shudnt go in details. it sucks.

"SINGAPORE DOG" became a popular phrase among Nad and Didi. tanks to me. Wuaha.

then went back Woodlands. with ATTENTION SEEKER bangla who looking down my cleavage. *if only DD was there* hmmph! then to cute guys arh..woo~

then met DADA again. she went off earlier to meet her bf then met us again. chilled at Fushan. met Farz oso. then tok tok tok. tok about lotsa tings.

one ting... it felt great. it feels like ol' times. *sigh*

all i can say is.. all of us going thru relationships now.. no matter how high we climb and how hard we fall.. jus remember.. we got each other back.. at least u got mine. *smiles*

i gotta go sleep. oh yeah i got my line connected oreadi! wee! hee..

im sleepy.*yawn* and monsta angry with me *sobs* im sorry~
i still *heart* him.

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Y 9/29/2005 03:51:00 AM

nicely wrapped-up day.

went to town todae. weee got lotsa new TOPS. i loike. tanks monsta for accompanying me! hee.
he pick out weird clothes for me but okie ahh. haa.

MONSTA and me did lotsa tings todae. we took lotsa pictures. we played DAYTONA together. i lost. we drank real coconut juice.took stoopid videoclips of us.. and many many more. then tired..we grabbed ice cream and made our way home.

met Nad and Shidada. after sooo long we hanged out again. sat at Tower and chit chat. Monsta piss me off with the "IDA" ting. hee. but nvm.

now im tired.

Monsta got me WINNIE THE POOH!!!! yeeeeeeahhhhh. he surprised me yesterdae at Dome. i *heart* u many many~ still wrapped in plastic cover... Pooh-ey is sitting on top of my desk. i love u monsta!

note: tok to shidada.. wad she went thru was really hell.. and i noe she deserves someone better and that person came at the rite time to rescue her. tankew Razil. and please be gentle with her k. she is fragile! hee. hope u are happy sweet! happy relationship(s) many years to come!

*yawn*

i *heart* u

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Y 9/28/2005 02:44:00 AM

in a blink of an eye.

at last i feel like blogging. been blogging half way and then close the window.
so many tings to blog in a small little mind. so i decide not to blog anitin.

i feel like eating @ Fish & co. but i dint.
i supposed to shop sumtin at Dorothy Perkins todae with mommy. but i dint.
i suppose to go get my new sim card and reactivate my lin. but i dint.
i suppose to go meet monsta. but i dint.
~sigh

monsta wanna bring me go theme park. but then i wanna go Fish & Co. told him and he said that we shall go theme park and then Fish & Co. that's why i *heart* him till now.

monsta flirted behind my back! he smiled @ another girl while i was buying sumtin. *sobs* only to realise tat girl is him cuzzin. i felt stoopid. damn~ hee. then monsta hugged me sayin im the most foolish and silliest girl he have ever met. *smiles* aku kan B.E.L.O~
i mish him~ and yeah i bought him Kit Kat dat day but then we fought and then i throw it in the dustbin~ then monsta sad. haiz. but now okie liao! wee

suppose to meet mommy todae to go to PS but then i overslept. tired mah jus came back from work. todae mummy hugged me and gave me a kiss on my forehead. wadever for? dunnO~ nvm.

i need to go get ready. monsta will scold me.

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Y 9/26/2005 05:44:00 PM

jus got back from work. tired and sleepy. hee. but refuse to sleep.

now i got a BAD BAD tummy ache. damn.

and i donno wad to blog.

i need so many tings with so little cash. how arh?

i'm sorry to wad ive done to u... u noe i still heart u many many~ *smiles*

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Y 9/25/2005 12:21:00 PM

i love dikir.

i love seni.

i love monsta.

i love my life now.

i still want winnie the pooh.

Y 9/24/2005 03:56:00 PM

joke of the day : Semut.

had the funniest day with Monsta. he crazy. stoopid. full of jokes and make a fool outta me.

hung out with the Lads of CDS. haa. they played Taitee while i make myself busy by walking back and forth at the same place. laff and laff. tanks.

then went to my voidy to talk with Monsta. had our "FAVOURITES" qsn and ans. got most rite. then count how many police car pass by. then comb Monsta hair. style style it. then i fell asleep and he sent me home. i tired sia.~

Monsta have been trying to make me special this few days. hope everytin goes well.

Happy newly attached to Shidada and Nad. *ehem* hee.~ *winks*

im tired. i miss monsta. i wan to sleep.

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Y 9/23/2005 02:55:00 AM

time ticking by.

im old. fuck. happi birthday to me~ *roll eyes*
special tanks to TOTFUL peeple who wished me. *smiles*

the battle took a turn. said our sorry and now me and my family are back to square one. it never change. sigh. im tiring myself out. wadever la~

tankew Monsta for spending the nite on my burfday with me. tanks for making me special that nite. tanks for shedding those tears and meaningful words of urs. no matter what i still heart u many many. dun worry~

i hate the feeling of 21. isnt it suppose to be sweet? sumtin went wrong sumwhere~ fuck. i wish i was 21 years back.~ bah~

im lazy to blog. happy birthday to me once again~ *yey*

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Y 9/22/2005 05:50:00 PM

tankew shida for having to remind me tat im getting old. yes i noe. noted. tanks! hee

noting to do cause i feel like going to sleep.

went to meet monsta. then come home. then now sleepy.

i cant wait for bdae at the same time i rather not let it come. i want present. but cannot.

heart to u and u and u and u. donate blood please.

i wan to sleep liao. zz.

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Y 9/21/2005 01:18:00 AM

nosey issues.

i like sean paul. but sean paul dunno who i am. wuaha.

chat with Aini. she crazy muda tuna lar she. force me to let her be my friend. stoopid. we like stoopid kids chatting sia. crazy. KAU GYLER NAK MAMPOS! wuaha.

went to work then come back lor. todae bath patient like siao. so many patient. but i like! 2.30 still got work to do sia. wah. i like but then shag like hell arh. in train i zzz-ing away. haa.

i know about the issue on *HER*. tok to Monsta about it and Monsta told me to ignore la. aniwae i tink its rite. she may have her reasons to do wadever she wants. who are we to critic on it? on questioned on it? or even assume her act? all we can do as friends is NO matter who she ends up wit..wad she got herself into.. we are her pillar. catch her wen she falls. stand by her thru wadever okie? *smiles* good luck to her and her new life *mwaks*

meeting Monsta. wee. he wan to bring me walk walk. wee. maybe he is the last person i wan to end my day with. spending the last hours before hitting the sack leave me a satisfied smile.
i *heart* him still~ *wink*

go siap lor. later i late he bising. then i bising. then war again. wee.

-end-

Y 9/20/2005 06:44:00 PM

pissed.

fcuking pissed. shoot everyone in my house now. fuck.

i have a fucking backstabbing sister. i have a non-understanding mother and my whole family is corrupted... i tink. and i have to suffer. damn. argh nvm la.

@ least there is sumtin to keep my mind away on tings. met Monsta. he got pay so he buy me dinner and then we sat down to tok and tok.. tok rubbish arh. have tis jawi session with him. tryin to figure out who's smarter then who.
monsta word for the day : CHA ALIF W-A-N = CAWAN. haa~ play cheat sia.. then he gimme cash to spend then we went off. said our goodbyes. cause he need to work mah tomoro.
*heart* him sia~

im still pissed sia. damn.

gonna sleep my piss away. i got work aniwaes tomoro.

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Y 9/20/2005 12:10:00 AM

Heavy Duty.

i got tummy ache suddenly. *argh*

yesterdae mum and dad fetched me cause i forgot my ex-link finish liao so she come fetch me then we went to fetch my auntie(s) and then went to Sembawang to eat. then met Wan there. hee. idiot~ keep disturbing me cause i wearing uniform then purposely irritate me want to faint. irritatin. hee eat eat then go home lor cause my eyes like tat sia -_-

hate shiela sia! she went Hard Rock yesterdae never tell me earlier. then ask me come last minute. slap her face then she noe. hee. nvm la. another time oso can go!

todae working la. i tired la. 3 people onie work. how to survive. mus weigh heavy patients somemore. idiot.

monsta keep calling me yesterdae. not going to monsta Dikir Barat competition cause i got to work afternoon mah~ good luck~! *heart* you. mwaks~

ARGH I WAN TO GO PANG SAI!!

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Y 9/18/2005 10:10:00 AM

..still going on strong.

went to the Ite Nursing Reunion Alumni Dinner. it was.. erm.. okie. haa. kena tinggal sak! i came late (as usual) star karat..then kena maki from zai sumer for being late. then won lucky draw. then take picture here and there. stoopid pictures oso haf.then say ISA aka Abang LoLx... DD wait for me @ Simei sia. wuaha. i tink ITE Simei is nice. too bad so far.

then finish everytin walk to MRT Simei with Zai and da rest. then saw DD. then go home. in the bus i sleep under i got saliva on his shirt. sowie ah. he cannot stop laughing. *sad* hee. then actually he wan go home but i accompanied him till 4am.
It was the most enjoyable day i had with Monsta. eventho we did notin but we talked. we realli talked. he told me every single ting wad he felt he tot and he need. then it makes me wonder.. i seen relationship 8,9 months or even a year end up spliting.wad about mine? im scared but i tink i will make it thru tis time. *cross fingers*

now i sleepy sia. like fark sia. i wan to sleep but i wan to blog.. stoopid rite? haa. bla bla bla.
i had a lovelee nite. i like tonite. but now got to go to sleep cause got work lor tomoro. shit rite?

good luck monsta for his Dikir Barat comp tis sundae. *huggies* and WN2 oso k!~

my burfdae come-ing liao lar. hee WAN MY PRESENT HOR! hee

i <3 my monsta muchie muchie seh. tankew for the Big Gulp hee! and testimonial.

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Y 9/17/2005 04:47:00 AM

unexplained love.

jus got back. went to see Zul. poor kid. sure look lost.
do people really go that extent for love? issit true love or jus plain stupidity?
haiz~ sumtin i myself can't answer.
hope he gets well.. everyone's praying for you. *prays*

sitting in my room suddenly lots of memories flashes thru me.
i miss my friends. i miss my ol' time. i miss the hangout time with the girls.
i miss my free life. i miss lotsa lotsa tings. haiz.. but then again tings jus got to change not everytin is gonna go fine.. hee.. nvm lar.. tings will get better.. at least its starting to..

monsta gave me a message in fwenster. hee..

baby...juz wanna say that i really love and miss you so much....dont worry abt me i'm fine here @ east coast...looking forward to see u one of tis dae...muack muack muack.....nomater what happen i always love u 4rever...take care dear...bubye....

i mish my monsta. boo hoo~ hee.

tanks for the day Nad and KFC.. weee. *wink*

im working tomoro.

Please God;

protect my family
protect my friends
protect my mister monsta...

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Y 9/14/2005 11:04:00 PM

Cigarette butt.

i have boring songs im my mp3 player. sucks.

meeting J later. need some favour from her. tankew hor J. ure my bestie. *wink* kau tau kan aku sayaaangg kat kau haa. part nie sayang ah. wuaah.

then meeting Nad and Wan @ Woodlands. Nad wan me to accompany her go Bras Basah. so far sia. i wan to stay around woodlands she ask me go there. Knn. haa. but nvm arh long tyme never go the Basah place. so go lor.

mommy cheat me. she never leave me my money. now i got no money to go out. hee. then call her she say she forgot. then now she not coming back. she got auntie emi house. aiya she oso another one. heart pain. hee. nvm la.

monsta call me late @ nite yesternite. he at ECP with the Marine Parade boys. make me luff for five minutes. say our nite nite and we hung up. he said he miss me. i miss him too. *sobs*
2 days never mit him oreadi. *smiles*

shiela oso cheat me. she say wan to pay back my 20 dollars. but she never give. then borrow my mp3 summore. fucktard. now i oso got no money. sheesh~

i hope i dun hap a bad day today. *prays* make me happy.

i wan to go lunching now. waiting for Nad's call.

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Y 9/14/2005 01:31:00 PM

everytin' cleared.

done my antivirus system scanning.
done my daily removing of unwanted files.
cleared up my msn contacts.
sorted out my msn contacts.

now my computer had it shower.. its clean~ yipee!

yes. i forgot to wish my friend the burfday wish. here goes. Happy Burfday~
sowie. hee.

i wished to meet Fuad Rahman. boo~ can i haf a duet of bob marley's Turn Your Lights Down Low? hee hee. i crazy muda fantart.

my partner in pool gone to skool. he sux. now i got no one to irritate.

slept late yesternite. msgs sent via hp to me was massive suddenly~ wah.. but i slept so fuck it.

mami bought me bread and 100 plus. haish. diet plan otw. haa. On The WAy arh not in progress! hee.

i still need more clothes. forgot to tank Monsta for the strawbelly candy yesterday in shapes of lips! hee. i *heart* him. todae not meeting him tho~ bah~

i miss my ol slack friends.. all the way from Civic clan.. all the way to the "single girls".
old memories of slacking at 1am under my void deck.. kena chase away by sleeping zombies. haa.
basically mish those gurls~ *wink @ Nad..Shidada..Farze...etc.
haish~

i wanna sleep. sleep is good healthy lifestyle. haa!

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Y 9/13/2005 04:13:00 PM

here without you.

jus got back home. work was shit just now. now having my 3 days off. *yawn*

went out with monsta jus now. he lie to me. he din tell me he bringing me to his practise. i hate to see him practise. hee. but nvm lor.

then i boring i go MP library read about war. then get to sit with him and tok about tings.. really serious tings. *smiles*
tis song reminds me of many tings.. the first time monsta and me dance to tis song. the first time he said he loves me. hee. bring memories sia. i like.

sleepy arh and tired ah. Chico out oreadi arh anugerah? hee. too bad. dun b sad arh FiQah. wuaha~!

to Nad:
*smiles* *hearts*
one day we will jus meet up k. till then take care of urself and rajin kan diri gi skola. wuahah~

i hate ex's. they disturb u wen u least wan to tink of them. they are like pest. sheesh~

i wan to off my pc now and tok to wan teddy my pool partner. that fucktard. irritatin bastard. haa. hope he die arh.. always curse me. but good friend arh he.. jiwa members haa. cant wait to hang out with him again tis Wednesday.

my burfdae coming ah. be good and get me prezzies k! i still *heart* him and you all lar~

sleep.

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Y 9/13/2005 01:12:00 AM

GSF.

gsf gsf.. girls sucks fanclub? girl sucks forever? wad actualli does it stands for? help~?

jus came back from work. and yessa my pc got sound oreadi lor! weee. need to upload to mp3. yey. two days never bring mp3. si beh sian sia. todae go to work got mp3. hehe.

im hungry. daddy went to buy b/f for me. so nice.

im happy. Monsta irritates me everytime with the Nabilah beetch. i mish monsta. fetch me from work but cannot send me cause he haf Dikir practise. the start of the practise means the lesser i get to see Monsta. brought up the topic about "Consent to go Club ALONE" haha. well let jus say its still in di processa. hee. i *heart* him lot lot!

tanks FiQ for the help for di song. appreaciates. link u later. keke.

i like tis song cause i like the way they dance to tis song @ HRC.

im tired.

happi 15month baby-T & boytears *claps*

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Y 9/11/2005 10:30:00 AM

full bitch surround.

im surrounded by bitches. fucktards..

jus came back home. went around marsiling with DD and then went to the Library to borrow some books. other than that im very very sleepy and tired. *yawn*

i wish sumtime i can go place farther away then at home.

life's simply sucks. another day to work.

to him: tankew for the candies! *grinz*

sleep.

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Y 9/10/2005 04:13:00 PM

Coffee & Tea.

..jus woke up. feeling all dizzy. and mom have to blast songs over the Hi-Fi since 9.30 am. argh. im suppose to work tonite and here im tryin to get some sleep and there she is blasting Anuar Zain songs and screamin on top of her lungs.. ARGH.. i haf weird family~!

ringing of the phone woke me up oso.. my monsta been calling me since 8am. argh. then force myself to wake up..chit chat.. he makes stoopid jokes and hung up. meeting him later to get money hehe *weee* i get money to spend! hehe. and then send me to work. i *heart* him so muchie! but the tot of work.. *bluergh* haiya. whine whine whine~

now mommy toking to monsta on da fone. haiya! haha. from jus now sia. dunno tok about wad sia.. i playin pool online so i dun care. haha. im hungry la~

hindustan songs still blasting over the HI-5. boredom~

im tired. im sleepy + hungry. wee.

i hate online pool and my pool partner is irritatin. wan sux. i hate u. bully! *winks*

i miss going to gigs.

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Y 9/09/2005 12:16:00 PM

belo & bacin

...im tired of staring @ the pc screen after HOURS of finding a skin.. tot of changing it sumtin to Louis Vuitton kinda shit but as time ticks by i realise i get LAZIER and decided to go with the ready made blogskin. so *taaadaaahhh* here it is.. more subtle and simple.. jus da way i loike them~ *grins*

went to da market todae.. weee.. haha. *roll eyes* bought LOTSA LOTSA and i really mean LOTSA tings! shopping was nice..going home was FCUK. mom made me carry all those tings and instead of taking the cab home WHICH SHE PROMISED! she make us both take the damn bus.
i was like >:( for the whole journey home. hehe. sowie mommy!

maybe i shud pamper myself with some nice whole body massage. aahhh.. haiz. time so restrained. damn~

miss my monsta.. he called me up after i'm being egoistic not wanting to make the first move..hehe told me he is with his frens.. blah blah.. said our misses and hung up..
i do miss him todae. he's working tomoro so mite be another nite shift at work with noone to send me to and fro. hehe still *heart* him.

im hungry but ive been drinking those coconut (young ones) juice. nyamm. nice~ i loike.

....tired and i have no idea wad to blog.
my burfday comin' tho *rubs palm together* *heheh*

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Y 9/08/2005 09:48:00 PM

Stand On Your Own.

indeed.. it's true.. you lead ur life alone.. not with friends..not with your partner or family. sheesh~

jus got back from work. its was a rather sleepy but i-can-manage kind of day. showering patients...giving them their meals.. its the same ting E V E R Y D A Y. hehe. im tired but tomoro having an off day so yeah can lar.. later can rest.

went out with FiQ and DD yesterday. hang around civics and then we went to the library. haha. funny funny. jus full of craps and laughter. had Mcdonald's for dinner and then we went to my void deck to sit around. had some serious discussions about "family pressure" hehe *smiles*
im sorry i acted like a fool.. haha "im POPEYE the SAILOR MAN TOOOOT TOOOOT" wuahah~ *wink @ FiQ and DD* tanks for the wonderful day. hehe. reached home at 12am but then went to zzz din realise i got miss calls hehe. i was realli tired.

tings have aroused within me and DD. noting between us but tings around us. we are realli going thru the path of hardship. *prays* but one ting i learned thru tis path.. it made both of us stronger for each other.. and every minute spent together are really special now.
to DD: we may go thru tis now.. but dun worry we will make it thru definitely. remember u said that one thing we had in our relationship that you never had with your ex's is Strength? and you said to ur friend that im the only girl that really could be strong to be and go thru everytin with you.. anitin can happen but jus remember.. the promise we made to each other rite?~
*heart* u.
relationship is never easy. the rougher it gets the stronger bond you have between each other. at least tat wads im going thru *smiles*

i find penguins to be really cute. round body round face short neck short leg and especially wen they slip and land on their bum~ wuahaha cute arh!



im tired. i wan to rest arh.

fuck you and you. i can say fuck you to whoever i wan!

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Y 9/07/2005 05:43:00 PM

Punctuality should be BAN.

hehe. yes. they shud be ban for people like. to prevent being fucked up.. from being scolded. etc. well life's sucks?
i jus woke up from sleep.. time check 13.18pm. and my sweet lil heart is under the void deck waiting.. for me i suppose. *hmmm* i din mean to make him wait wad~ gonna get to spend the whooole day with him. yipee~ *huggies*

tomoro working.. fuck.
morning shift.. double the fun of being fucked. (not physically tho`)

i wanna upload recent pics of me but then again reality hit me in the head.. my line got suspended. so yeah no mms no noting. jus house fone. to all hu noes my house fone.. get me thru there k *smiles*

shud i or shud i not? get that top from Dorothy Perkins. mom said yes.. ayang said no.. hmm.
i tink i shall go get ready now. poor ting. he reached at 12.00 and here i am still blogging shitless stuffs about noting at all.. hehe.

special tanks to my Uncle for repairing my computer. w/o his help i wudnt be able to surf like i use to~ hehe shankew *bows*

i still *heart* him shooo much~

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Y 9/06/2005 01:16:00 PM

Happy 3 Months

YES. it's true I M BACK. got all connected and poof im here again as last time. yesha!
im happpeeeee *yey yey*

tings have been realli good and gr8 these days. been to Hard Rock and back. hehe. but gotta go back to work. no more saturdays for me *boo* Tank U To my in charge for letting me weeks after weeks of Sat off~ owe it.

went to PS just now with Mak & Ibu. Later DD joined us. had some discussion. tok and tok and all i did was stare and listen. then evening walk Mak back home and then went to jus sit around with DD. just got back.

i lost track of almost everything. i was too fickly with my templates that i chose the easy way out.. change the colour onlie. wuahah. im lazy.

now im connected back and im lazy to blog *roll eyes* haiya.

Happy 3rd Month To Mister Dinosaur *DIDIE* ~rarr rarr~ i *heart* u
gwa lup sama lu. wo ai ni. *insert tamil verse here*
tanks for making me special for the last 90 days. im still in love wit you *smiles*
and tanks for argueing with me less *teehee*

*heart heart heart* all of you!!!

Y 9/06/2005 02:18:00 AM