Hadirnya Cinta- Gerhana Ska Cinta

permata...engkau lar intan..sanubariku.. kau pujaanku.. kau idamanku..
*wink @ him*
wuahaha. im bored. jus tuning into some skanky songs. hehe jus woke up. late yes.. hehe cause im freaking tired seh. so i decided to jus sleep till late. woke Onie up already and i tink he is at skool now. hope so. *smiles* eaten my breakfast and im full rite now.

tok to Boyok since he woke me up tis morning. he @ bedok station now..receiving his old cases but i tink he is free from any charges. aniwae he have to undergo a knee surgery in SGH nex week so i hope he is okie. well besides the fact he been telling me how scared he was for like 7584,45478,45 times...i tink he will make it with a swift.. hehe cakap fighter boy..takkan kena operate dah gentar? hehe. manja lar tat boy.. everyone must manja him. wuaahh especially Safri. wahahha. mish him lots lots and wish him best of luck!

todae off so din go aniwhere. shidada messaged me but i lazy wanna go dome arh.. see how arh.. if i got the mood. hehe. messaged her already! .. tomoro on da afternoon with Zai so i tink will be not bad. cant wait for friday. wanna go shopping with J. hehehe. okie lar.

noting much to update except im still sad. and the friendship still hanging loose.

xx[ katak dalam kotak rokok ]xx

Y 3/23/2005 03:29:00 PM

nobody's home - avril lavigne

jus came back from work. tomoro morning! argh. multiple showering and lucky all my patients can walk lar! heahea. jus now things were OKIE. nutin much but i was working non stop till about 8pm. *smiles* i <3 rehab. hehe then got back home with Onie companying me home as per usual! hehe. then saw a BROWN CAT. i never seen an entirely brown cat before. hehea. din have anitin to do at the MRT station.. so i took pics of the fire estinguisher. wuaha. im bodoh.

i really forgot of wad happened the past few days. besides the fact tat i went to esplanade TWICE. hehe. still rivers. saw them performed. the last day was superb. i saw my Dreadman and he smiled and i was lost. i din noe wad to do. went there with J and Khai. we as per normal came late and we din get ani place to sit. so we stand and skank and then got a place to sit at the stairs. stairs pon stairs la!!! haha. and then i forgot wad happen. then in the train Khai gimme cokelat sweet. weeee i loike. and then i ask for 3 more. hehe. wuahah. then i go home. then i sleep. eh no i tok to Onie tell him about my day and then i go sleep. hehe.

friday going to shopping day out with J. wooo cannot wait. dunno tat Barney wanna follow or not. hehe. then gonna go Peninsula. and then town. and then Beach Road. and then all arh! PLEASE REMIND ME TAT I HAVE TO GET MY BROWN SLIPPERS. tank u. hehe wanna get new top. new make up. new new new. new brown tings. brown brown brown. hehehe. weee. cannot wait. then supposingly going to JB with Onie but he mite be working. he belo la. hehe.

tok to him yesterday until 5.30am then he never go skool todae. bodoh kan! i work can go he skool cannot. then we tok about hospital... and then we make stoopid jokes. and then we dunno tok about ..i oso forgot! hehe. im sleepy arh. zzzz...

xx[ cockroach plays five stones ]xx

Y 3/22/2005 12:05:00 AM

fuck friends.

shits happens. all i noe is FUCK. haiz. to be sad or to be dissapointed? i oso dunno. u noe wen u put ur trust and tink tat you have all ur friends behind ur back.. suddenli u realise tat they are the one who will create shit for u. but as i said.. im tired and sick.. eh salah lar.. im sick and tired of all the shits tat happens. im old enuff to tink for myself. fuck it if im a working class person can fucking take time to spend time with my friends.. why cant u.

to you:
if i were to backstab u i wud fucking do it a long time ago since i noe i can get back up against u so easily. why waste my fucking time standing up for u.. protecting u.. sharing things with u.. shed tears with u.. in the end u fucking turning this friendship to a shitless end. wadda fuck makes u tink i wanna even lie to u about Tsunami? if i wan i wudnt tell u the truth about the tag board. i wunt even tell u wad he said so tat u can noe wad he felt. i wudnt even fuck care less about u. but u jus said i back stab u and ure hurt. if u tink tat im a fucking bad person then fuck tis friendship k. dun blame shida for not spending time with us.. jus put a mirror in front of u and look at all ur mistakes.
jus dun treat us..dun treat me like shit lar at least.. wen u got friends u put me aside.. fuck it.. i never fail to include u with everytin im doin.. argh fuck it lar.. i had enuff of u and wadever shits u told Ati.. or Nisak... or Farz or.. Huda.. or whoever lar about me.. all i noe tat u shud wake up and realise wad ure doing .. and fuck serangkai.. tanks for everythin! as u say if u dun like wad we do FUCKING TELL US UP FRONT.. dun go and pass pass the story around. they donnoe shits.. so dun let people assume...

aniwae went to town.. and then met Izza and Huda. but din chill with them.. but nice to see u girls.. and then met Bella and Jenny and her friend. then went to Peninsula.. tanks Jen for the SHILLINGS. hehe and then go to kedai kakak. i wan to buy a brown tee sia. nice sia. see how la. then went to esplanade.. and then wahh got reggae gig.. then Still Rivers la.. azmi. wuahha mish him sia.. and then they are okie lar not tat bad. lotsa mat mat botak and all those rudes. haha then skanky good time. then met Aidil and Nini. hehe. then FishTank oso have. i miss wen i was in the band seeing them play their instruments. haiz. heheh then went home.. then got skater boy say my specs nice. wuahahha. then mebe going again with Khai arh tomoro. he wans to see Fish Tank. weee.. *skank skank*

i din eat since morning. woke up late and rush to town. so never eat until now. the onli thang i ate was peach preserved fruits. wuahah. nvm lar.. i had enuff for todae.. all i noe i wanna meet my bestfriend tomoro and then i wanna go to see azmi band and skank the nite away... gonna meet J yey....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! k arh i wanna eat up and then sleep. tanks Izza for those tings u said to make me feel better. Tanks Onie too..

xx[ friends are meant to fuck up ur life ]xx

Y 3/18/2005 11:38:00 PM

Macbeth.

reading tis macbeth story. small storybook but LOTSA pages. i hate books with lotsa pages. all i read for the past half hour was "go to bed..on aircon and sleep"... hehehe. im tired. had a bad bad bad day. but i jus cudnt shut my eyes and sleep. so here i am half awake half comatos. haha.
surfing the net in attempt to change my blogskin. but in the end failed but changed it to sometin simplier la. tired of the old skin... hehe. whilst listening to some songs over my media player.

tomoro im off. worked at the renal side jus now. then waited for J before heading home. i had a terrible day. i hate renal side. it sucks. can i say tat? IT SUCKS. then break time called Onie then complain and complain like no body business. and then he told me to go to the toilet to rest if im too tired. and YES i did jus tat. wuahahhahaha. im tired sia! imagine the onli junior. dammit! i hate renal side. but i <3 SN Ummi. wuahaha. cant wait for the holiday me and her planning to go. hehe. still pending on where to go. Ummi is the older version of me... only a year older but still O L D E R. so 'cept the fact k! haha.

Onie gave me a clip on how they skin cute animals for their fur. IT SUCKS. i hate human. they are so inhuman. i cried. yes i did... cause after they skinned it.. u can still see the animal cringe in pain.. moan in pain. argggggggggghhhh i cant take it. fuck fuck. haiz. then Onie is nice he accompanied me to watch tat tinggy. haha. sorry ah.. i cannot take it lar Onie. wuaha. but still i hate those people hu do tis like they have no heart or emotions. damn they shud burn in hell and be skinned alive too! hmmph! i hate all tis people!!!

tomoro dunno where to go..mebe East Coast? dunno. shiela meeting her bf.. so i mite tag along to ECP with Nad and her new friend. i got no date. wuaha. so going solo and enjoy the sea view. wee.. but another part of me lazy lar wanna go. wee.. hahahaha.
see how lor...

accompanyin Onie to finish his project. so tat he will not go crash and sleep. he failed his Napha. wuahahahahhahaha .. cute lar he. aniwae he passed his riding theory. congrats sweetie. wuaha. hope u do well in future okie! mwaks.

im sleepy. and im tired. and im gonna ... zzzzz

i caught a butterfly.... im not letting it go yet.

xx[ power rangers makan brownie ]xx

Y 3/18/2005 02:55:00 AM

*yawn* ... wah jus woke up from a deep sleep. well not really deep but okie lar at least i feel as though i had some sleep. woo. if not for Pendek fone call i dun tink i will wake up seh. and then so many people wanna message. irritatin seh. hehe. then last call from Pendek and i woke up. nice feeling to be able to sleep. weee. *smiles* then roll in bed and then roll out and then sat here lor staring at the screen. hehe. then shiela irritatin shouting. fuck. u noe where u jus wake up and u jus wish everythin is silent or at least quiet and tis fucking piece of loud shit is screaming screaming. can talk but still wanna shout. -_-''

hehe. todae tings were okie. nutin much happened. had a sucky exams. really really sucky exams sumtin about brains. LoL. and then call Onie tell him and complain. i dun even noe anitin about brain and they let me sit for this subject and WORST i studied the wrong subject. my brain oreadi gone case summore wan me to sit for some brain exam. wuahah i dun even noe the simplest question. all the question i did was in hope tat i got the rite one at least! wuahaha. but i failed. as usual. so mus go back retest. damn! argh! haha no wonder i hate skool. i hate exams. then i join nursing still mus take exams. stoopid stoopid. wuahaha!

somehow a name caught my attention whilst in between typing this and listening to some reggae tune and also shiela toking.. some how the name ALAHAM caught my attention. wuaha. no comments. Alaham. hmmmm. wad kinda name. nice okie arh. wuahahahhahha. shiela matchmaking tis Alaham creature with my cuzzin FiQah. wuahah wads happening in this world!
hehe. funny lar how people name can be.. Nuramilia.. nice mine is unique. wuahahah.

somehow i mish my friends. have not been meeting even one of them since the last time. nadz farz shida. etc. all been away from each other. alah nvm la.. dun care la. cause all i noe if there is time we will come together again. ...i still got my Onie.. wuahah. he jus called. so mus call him back lar. toopid! -_-'' wuahah. ehhh todae i slept in the train on the way home i never drool!! wuahaha. not bad! hahaha. toking to him now..

woo shiela wanna belanja me go tunnel. but i dun wan. wuahahaha. cause i dun like all tis places.. yarrrrr riiiiiiteeeeeee. wuahahhaa no clubbing for the time being mebe.. hehe. see how la. Ummi asked me to trip to the Penang tis coming early May. alah. i dunno. see how. i wanna go shopping. mite be going to JB tis coming pay day with Onie. mus find car. wuahaha. weee if i never come homw please call Onie hp k. he mite kidnap me.. for no reason but better be safe than sorry. wuahaha.

....i want my pay... UWEKKK!!! hehehe. i cant wait to shop! weeee!
to all my guilty shopping partner..get ur feet ready! we gonna shop till we drop and then get up again and then drop.. die. weeeeeeeee!
wuahaha starting to tok rubbish with Onie about sentosa. wuahaha. funny lar tat boy. <3 him seh.

xx[ ninja turtles pakai couldroy pants ]xx

Y 3/16/2005 09:13:00 PM

old skool tribute.

went to beach road the other day with J.. and guess wad i told Onie tat i found TORA... DING DANG.. and those black packets with ? mark on its cover.. haha all those ol skool shit wen i was still in my kindergarten man. and its still manufacturing those stuff. mite be going during my pay day and getting all those shits man. dope sia!! ahah excitedly told Onie.. J was like " aku nampak TORA ARH!!!!" wuahahha.. we were like an ass... then go eat at the coffee shop lor. nutin much. find J atm machine so difficult. at last found but rosak. argh argh argh. then nvm jus go eat. wuahaha. weee.. then went to shop buy "kuaci" then eat our way home.. wuaha.

did i mention tat i LOVE beach road? cause they sell so many BROWN STUFF!!!! hahaha. i love beach road. todae i learnt tat Barney.. Tasha.. and Ridz loves brown too.. weeee. then can ask them shop brown tings with me!! woo.. aniwae to Barney ..happy one week holiday outside camp k! heheh enjoy. to small and schooling kids.. eh budak hingus.. happy holidays! wuaha

wah the otw home.. haha luff lar see tis kids all so making a nuisance outta themselves. cannot take it sia. ahhaha. reach home okei okei arh not so late. then slept. wuaha sleepy sia! haha.

today tings are okie.. i had my off day yesterdae and yes at last din go out cause plain lazee.. so sit my ass at home. tok to Onie.. then he went off... to i cant remember where. hehe. then tok to him yesternite. then sleep la. todae work.. not bad lar.. tings went smooth. many new patients but i loike. they all very the nice. *smiles*
then knock off at three and then went home with SN UMMI. haha luff and luff in the train and then i fell inside the train onli to realise i was DROOLING!!!! ARGH ARGH ARGH *hide face* wad fuck sia! was i really tat tired that i DROOLED. damn! damn it! and people were not looking except for one or two. argh embarassed like hell sia. then to make matter worst i overslept a station later. so haffta patah balik seh! bodoh seh. haiyo. then reach home then slept. wahh feels nice. now i feel like sleeping again seh! hehe.

jus got off the fone with Onie. he told me he sleep oso. ahaha then his mother wanna use the fone. im bored but im very tired. so mite be hitting the sack soon. *yawn*. can i say i love my mom? yeah i can.

to shidada tanks for chatting with me yesterday. its been sumtime i chatted with the serangkai. and im glad to share stuff with u.. about the cina ninjaboi! wuahaha. and then i understand wad u going thru k. and i pray and hope u and tembam *boinky boinky boinky* (recording) WUAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA kiwak.. tak leh take it sia! wuwhahahha.. aniwae yeah i hope u and him last k. dun care wad people tink or say.. if ure meant for each other.. wad matter most is the both of u. *smiles*

i shall sleep in peace @ the same time wait for my fone to ring. Onie.

xx[ one last memory of him ]xx

Y 3/14/2005 12:03:00 AM

...one last

at last sometin tune-able from mr taufik beside mrs jones. heahea. been listening to tis song tis past few days.. padahal baru download smalam. bodoh siak nadia. hhehe..
slept thru the day.. after mom made me dinner.. i ate popiah inside hotdog for dinner.. 3 and then i went zzzzing away. i was very very very sleepy sia. then woke up to realise so many messejes and miss calls. nvm ah.. once in a while i get to sleep until so late seh. tomoro off summore. hehe.

supposingly to go to ECP jus now with Zai and my staff in my ward. but i am PLAIN LAZY and furthermore i got sometin up. so yeah..went home with boy todae. dropped by dome to get Rome mp3 and i went home. so freaking exhausted todae. argh argh. i jus wanna sleep and not wake up but i was so damn thirsty. hehe so woke up. weee.

dunno tomoro wanna follow the peepos to PS ke tak seh. dorang ader floor skill battle.. sumtin' lyke tat i tink. i oso dunno wad sia. see how. mite be going to meet Hakim and Esa.. but i oso dunno wad half way smsing i fell asleep.. wuaha... i cannot tahan. then wake up at 12.30 i sms them so far got reply and then half way it went dead... hehe.. i oso duno wether they awake or not sia. haha. nehmind dun bother. see how lar tomoro. lazy oso haf. but see how.. i wanna sleep and rest but bored lar later.. hehe

playing with my fone at the same time smsing away.. bored lar nutin much to do.. mebe i shall go lay down in bed and do noting. wuaha. mish my serangkais. well dunno still serangkai or not. wuaha. nvm.

Onie out to Pasir Ris seh. so good sia tat boy. happy life. called me up... but never get to tok very long. nehmind. hope he is doing fine. take care. hehe.

im tired. im out.

xx[ i want my ninja boi ]xx

Y 3/12/2005 01:46:00 AM

days since i last updated. i noe.. its plain busy+lazy+everyting else. wuahaha. but nvm since i got time now i shall update. hehe. i totally forgot wad the hell happened this past few days. tings are about the same. nutin much happening. still the same ol shits. go to work and come back and do nutin except have those post-work mood. haha.

went to Beach Road recently.. wahhhh i tell u arh my whole 21 years ... I NEVER STEP INTO BEACH ROAD. haha except during 2001 i went to Malacca i went to the tourism tinggy across the road from the food stalls. and i went there to eat tulang once. and tats it. i never go the shops. then i went with Boy.. skali wahhhhhhhhhh i loike ah. so many tings. wuahaha. excited sia. then suddenli sad cause so many tings i wanna buy but so little money. wuahah. then nvm promised myself to go during pay. but Onie said can get cheaper at Johor. mebe go with him or ask Nadz mom to bring me to JB la. i wan to go buy LOTSA LOTSA LOTSA brown ting!!! weee.
oh yar i wanna straighten my hair...permanently. yey. *smiles*

met Nadz and Farzee the mafaka sistas yesterdae.. hehe.. told Nad that i fell.. YES I FELL EVERYONE.. and she luff in my face like there is no tomoro. K-N-N sia.. haha then luff and luff skali wanna borrow my fone to take pictures.. ahhaha tis type of friend oso i have. double K-N-N. well mish shidada but its been weeks since i last saw her.. *shrugs* i oso dunno la.. now i learnt wadever shits wanna happen let it be.. as long i noe i still have special people.. then i wont bother wads happening to the others.. a new mind a new way of thinking.
around 12+ we went home...

yesterdae i sad the whole day.. Onie disappeared... then remembered he went to JB. wuaha. then skali sad sad he came online... damn happy.. he oso. i make sumtin for him... give him oreadi.. but the word BELO spoil la. ahha.. nice rite!!! hehehe... im tired actually.. waiting for shiela to finish showering then wanna go take my shower and go to work.. again work. wah damn.. i wont have my off till tis saturday sia.. its been 7 days since i work straight. nvm ah. as long as i get my pay in the end ah...

i <3 my spesel people..

nadia
farz
shida
shiela
boyok
....lastly Onie The Belo.. weee

Y 3/08/2005 10:42:00 AM

brown brown. i loooveeee brown.

argggghhhhh i saw this brown slippers. and i hate my life. why it have to pop up wen i got no cash!!!! and why it have to be so expensive!!! argh argh!!! boring sia like tat. have to wait for my pay.. dunno until wen. K-N-N... hehe... nvm nvm.. i wan brown bag.. brown earings.. everyting brown!!! weee got maself a brown strap seh.. happi sia.. hehe.. and i got brown specs.. and brown bag.. but i wan more brown... slippers arh!!! weeee

went out with J and shiela yesterdae.. went to town.. onli three people but very the kecoh lar.. take pic here and there.. stoopid sia...then went to eat.. then went to take MORE NEOPRINTS.. wuahah my face is a neoprint face lar.. and then went to walk to Lucky Plaza.. get mummy some food.. and then went to Annex.. hehe surprise gift.. a brown strap.. tankew to sumone.. and then went to walk to Dhoby Ghaut and go home.. was suppose to meet Azhar.. but then he late lar.. he cant get a cab so we went home first.. met Hakim on the way home and he wanted to chill.. so shiela went home first and we both sat and talk bout stuffs... hehe.. and then he sent me home.. wuahah klakar lar tu mamat... hehe...

called Onie then went to zzz.. wuahah i tired wad.. day off todae. so later i wanna zzz again. i forgot wad shift i am tomoro sia.. fuck la.. how la.. no one to contact.. haiya... nvm nvm.. call zai later..

xx[ i love brown ]xx

Y 3/04/2005 11:02:00 AM

brown eyes can kill.

wad colours are my eyes arh? brown? black? dark brown? i oso dunno... but my eyes dun kill.. cause its always 247 sleepy... hehehe... been a long freaking time since i last update.. im practically busy and on my shift.. so hardly had spare time coming online.. so yeah..check in once in a while but hardly got the chance to update.. but here i am.. so i will try to update some stuff la dey... *smiles*

been hectic this few days..working and paying more attention to work rather than leisure time.. and tomoro gonna be my day off.. woo and rest day together.. need tat so bad.. suffering from back ache and everything tat i never suffer before.. and im having diarrhoea oso.. is tat how u suppose to spell it? i oso dunno.. never mind.. but in all my life sucks oso lar.. in the ward all i can do is tok to my patients as though they are part of my load now.. hehe..

*him* been very supportive all these while.. never fail to be there and get half of my load off my mind and life.. making sure he calls me and comfort me during working hours.. complained to him about shits tat happen etc etc.. and he really do listens.. and making me smile every now and then.. but aiyar still the same..cannot harap wen ask him to wake me up early... hehe but still i really do <3 him.. but.... *smiles* it takes time.. waiting la... *huggies*
jus call me..heehe.. we both jus woke up from sleep... sleepy sia.. now he is singing taufik basah songs.. sucks lar his voice.. shhh... hahahhaa....

got ma self a new fone.. weee... hehe took a lot of pics..kata jakun kan..im bored bored bored... tomoro is my off day and i got no plan. and my pay finishing and fuck i got noting to do!! argh. hehe... im a whole lot of complains.. i noe.. i loike... hehe.

my legs are freaking itchy lar...dunno wad bite it.. but its damn itchy..sucks la... haiya...

xx[ million tears for you ]xx

Y 3/02/2005 10:11:00 PM