tinking: it's a sunday?
its a sunday? oooOOook.
jus receive a call from Kirin. gonna meet her todae. gonna get my new sim card. and then gonna go elsewhere after that. hope its a better day. seriously im 'fraid to step outta the house. but wad da heck. *smiles*
I MISS RIYAN! argh. tat bastard. haha. after sooOOooOOooOOoo freaking long never call me or meet me up .. suddenli he called me yesterday nite. wen i was about to zzz off. argh. *screams* really missed him. wanted to noe wads up with my life. at last sumone who truly care besides all the guys friend i have. ehehe *huggies* i do really miss him. gonna meet him up one day to eat.
look at my kitchen.. *peeeft* so many tings to clean up. fuck. dammit. stoopid..
had an irritatin chat with Mohsin yesterdae. haha bloody bastard. no la i dun like tat Rudeboy k. so dun go spreading rumours. i was joking. and yes Please u shud stop smoking boy~
gonna clean up ma house and prepare to go out. Peace out.
liriks for tat special sumone hu left me.
Tetap Miliku.
Hapus air matamu
Aku tak ingin kau menangis lagi sayang
Yakinkan hati di antara resahmu
Diriku tak 'kan memilih meninggalkanmu
Sekian waktu bersama
Tak mudah 'tuk menepis semua kenyataan
Kita berbeda jalani keyakinan
Tapi kau yang kuinginkan dari s'galanya
Di setiap rinduku
Hanya memanggilmu
Ku yakin kau pun mengerti
Ku tak ingin menanggalkan hati
Sayangku dengarkan aku
Tak mungkin ku melepasmu
'Kan kupertahankan kau cintaku
Dan semua air matamu yang berarti di hidupku s'lalu
Sayangku dengarkan aku
Tak mungkin ku melepasmu
Bawalah cintaku bersamamu
Kar'na ku tetap milikmu selamanya 'kan abadi s'lalu
Y 10/31/2004 11:55:00 AM
Saturday, October 30, 2004
if..sumone wud jus touch my heart and feel my pain.
if..sumone wud jus wipe my tears.
if..sumone wud jus shine a light for me.
if..sumone cud jus grab my hand and lead me through.
if..sumone wud jus understand the pain.
if..sumone wud jus erase my frowns and draw a smile.
if..sumone wud jus reach out.
if..sumone wud jus understand me.
if..sumone wud jus reach out and be there for me.
if..sumone wud jus stood by me.
if..sumone wud my life happier.
if..sumone make it shiny once again.
..its only IF
din get enuff sleep yesternite. was so tossing and turning tat finally gotta give up and log on the net.
abang imran was pretty shocked and sad of wad happen. i disappoint him again. promised him i take good care of myself but i din. i got hurt again. i noe he wanted so much to take care and look out for me.. but yet its too far. be waiting for ur return abang im.. 26th aite.. and pleash PIZZA k.. *huggies* tanks for being there. for all my ups and downs. never forget u said "setinggi mana tupai melompat akhirnya CRAMP juga" haha~
decide to change the blog song to sumtin Kimmy sang. he passed me tis a few months back. and i start to appreciate it todae. haha. so yeah he sounds so smooth. *tanks* kim for making me ease up my mind. *huggies*
todae is my family feast day. relatives coming soon. sux. of all day todae. wen i feel 0% happy and 101% useless.
kirin mite be going to Tamp with me tomoro to get my new sim card. damn. and then mite sleep over to me crib. yeah. so need to call her sumhow later.
i hate blogging.
Special Tanks To midnite-Comfort-Clan:
Abang Imran *mwaks*
Zarian Luffing Monster
Lynn Minah
Lynn Koridorz
chunky butt bob
hafiz bob
C DeeQ
Tash
..tanks for being there once again~
Carve your wrist and spell out my name D.E.V.I.L
Y 10/30/2004 03:33:00 PM
tinking: *sobs*
life have taken its best toll on me.. again. i hate life. its cruel. towards me at least. yeah. i feel so crappy and shitty rite now. fuck. and my neighbour dog have to top my distress moment with its YAKKING. *shoots dog* die bitch die.
yeah got ROBBED and ASSAULTED todae. in broad day lite i got the taste of feeling *lost* i jus din noe wad to do. i jus got myself up. terminate my number and ring up the bastard in blue. Cops. haffta turn up to them in the end oso. got my statement down. issued a check up appointment. haiz. wad a life. wad a day. all FUCKED UP. pushing me back to my suicidal state.
bumped into Nadia. a friend indeed is a friend in need. *hugs* she is there with me through out. with the rest of the peeps too. tanks a lot for comforting and assuring me. never felt better. hang out with them before going home feeling all shitty and robbed. *still hurting from the punches*
got home kirin was there too. comforted me. i felt so like a small sis to her eventho im a year older. she is always there too. besides the regular basis of Nadia being there by my side. she is too. i look up to her as a big sis cause she always watching out and making sure im safe and not hurt. cried out my shits todae at her. *huggies* and best.. no one calls me Baby except her.. *smiles*
gonna go 7-11 wit mom now. gonna drown all my sorrow.
Pls god if u read me.. pls i dun ask much jus i wanna pray tat the guy get caught and brought to justice. please. tis is my onli hope. tankew.
Specials Tanks + hugs and kisses to:
Nadia
Typhoon
Anis
Ayie
Kirin
Bob Blurr
Said
Mim
tanks for being there wen i need sumone. appreciates it. may god bless u kind peeps.
Carve your wrist and spell out my name D.E.V.I.L
Y 10/29/2004 10:25:00 PM
Thursday, October 28, 2004
tinking: LiLo & Stitch and me.
..watched LiLo and Stitch the movie again. cute. i find LiLo nose like mine. so cute! argh. why do they have to make animations so cute. dammit.
chat with abang imran. he making me look so stoopid aniwae. haha mish him lots. hope he coming to singapore soon. he is but a few days after raya. must meet him up one day. mish him! *huggies* *sigh*
*HE* called me at last. waited in the afternoon. the fone din ring. he called me at last at 10 pm. said he jus came back. argh. he called he called. *jumps*... he called again jus now. told me not to hog on da fone with other guys. he will call me back soon. *jumps for joy again and again* but now put down oreadi. dum dee dum.. wait again~ *sigh*
having bad tummy ache. argh.
shoot me dead please.
Ohana. FamiLy. Nobody Get Left Behind.
Y 10/28/2004 11:14:00 PM
tinking: *someone*
changed my lay out to sumtin different. i tink my eyes grew sick of the tri band colours. damn. LoL. aint suppose to be tis way but then again TODAE i surf around 5 blogs that have EVERYTHING to do with reggae. so yeah changed mine.
been dosing myself fairly with a collabo of Marilyn Manson and Evanescance. i feel so suicidal. damn. with Manson blabers about Disposable Teens. LoLx. i wonder how it feels to be disposable. damn again. its a fair dose.
*dum dee dum* woke up tis morning and the first word i said was "OW". my body was damn aching. my shoulders down to my body. wad da hell. guess i slept in a wrong position. got up cleaned da house. and then log into the net. nice~
*he* havent call me yet. well.. we tok jus yesterdae. we tok before BUKA. after buka.. and then all thru the nite till 2.45am till his batt went flat. promised to call me todae. we will see. hmm tok to him about all the same shit tat fell on me. he agreed. why din i seem to click with him. haiz.
halloween nite. celebrate? nope. sis working. i miss the old bunchas.. the Ladies. i miss them so bad. sometimes i wish tings were the same. but it aint. *aww* but i noe one day we will still meet in.. in cheeky monkey mebe? hehe!
im in between of loving my life and hating it. but im stuck and lost. please shine a lite?
Carve your wrist and spell out my name D.E.V.I.L
Y 10/28/2004 02:45:00 PM
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
had fantastic day at town with the ladies yesterdae. a collabo of sisters and a friend. went to catch a movie @ Chathay Cineleisure. woo free nachos and popcorns! i love my life. watched Oujia Board. After da show here's what i predict.
No. Of Times I Closed My Eyes: 100 and more
Loudest Screams In A Duo: Shiela & Kirin
Noisiest Bunch In A Group/Duo: Shiela & Kirin
Most Cuddly Couple: Nura & Nad (we like @ home sia)
Most Brave Person: Farz (sit all alone)
No. Of Times I Choked On Popcorn: 5
tats it. we had fun. *smiles*
went to Palais Renaissance after that to meet Kirin mum. Whoa. Gorgeous is wad i can say about her mom. and then went to Burger King beside Borders. chill and ate. *burp* and then walk to Taka and luff at stoopid joke. BAHAN: Nadia. haha.
walked to HMV and went to Youth Park see some of Wicked Aura practising before heading home. somehow i jus miss Bushmen. *sigh* hehe reached woodlands and did some stoopid stuff at CWP 7-11.. haha. shhhh.
went to NorthPlaza 7-11 got ourselves some mashed potato. nice k. haha and eat our way home. reached home and slept. so tired sia.
hope can do tat again. one day. tanks for the day. i still love all of u.
i feel like drinking green tea. later can go buy.
Carve your wrist and spell out my name D.E.V.I.L
Y 10/27/2004 03:24:00 PM
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
...life is really unfair. been unfair to me these days. argh im so lost. so confused.
went to catch movie with my onli bestfriend .. baby gyaL Nadz. she is my sweet heart. we went to eat at my home. and then went to catch a movie.. EXORCIST. lame but true. haha. well we were so noisy. got ourselves a couple seat. Oh god i feel so lesbian. LoLx. watch the movie thru. had fun. woohoo bought ourselves self made whip potato oso! yey! tanks Nadz for treating me!
sumtin happened yesterdae. ive been gettin involve in a three way love. haiz. and tis time its with my own bestfriend. i realli was shock but in me the ting tat matters to me is YOU okie. i wont jus cause of some guy i wud hold that grudge against u. You stood by me.. you lend me a shoulder to cry *remember east coast* and you shared everythin with me. we are like sisters now then ever. and i cant possible throw that memories away jus cause of a guy. it so immature. and yeah i love you very much till it hurts for me to see u so sad and guilty of wad uve done. i told u and i will tell u again sweet.. it will make me happy to see u happy.. cmmon he's available now.. dun miss ur chance sweetie.. i will take a step back but still be there to catch you wen u fall.. You noe hu u are k. *smile* i luv u..~
going out with Nadz. kirin and shiela todae to catch another movie.. Oujia Board. yey. Nadz catch it oweadi but wad da heck she still haffta folow. haha~ yiiipeee got couple seats again! Nadz u watch out! hahaha.. *ahhh* i love all my friends.
I tink ive fallen for someone.. starting. No ah cannot be. all of us KUTUK him and now dun tell me he is the ONE. well besides he stood by me. but no more LOVE for me.. not for now..
i love my friends. i really do...
Carve your wrist and spell out my name D.E.V.I.L
Y 10/26/2004 01:33:00 PM
tinking: life is shit.
tats it. tragic end to a beautiful love story. suppose to be beautiful till it involve a three way line. its jus blew. it blew real bad. fuck ah. hu cares. haha.
met up with kirin. my baby gyal. she is the onli one tat is there wen i need sumone beside the two sista. nadz and farz. called up nad yesterdae crying. i jus cant hold back ma tears. ive been cheated too many times. WHY. yesterdae my nite evolves around the word
WHY.. why tis why tat. fuck my nite.
todae woke up tinking it was all a dream. but no. it wasnt. its still fresh from the nite before. my aching heart. my tear stained cheeks. my love for kirin is still intact tho. and my anger still have not subside. why on my own bestfriend. i wonder wad he was tinking. bastard.
kirin: im sorry if ken and u quarelled cause of tat bastard. im sorry if its me. im sorry k hunny.
No such ting as LOVE.
Carve my wrist and spell out your name D.E.V.I.L
Y 10/25/2004 04:08:00 PM
tinking: Raghav
he is hot. damn hot. sigh. i guess im slow in realising people who are hot. well not really. hehe.
but yeah he is sizzling hot tis raghav.
actually i cant remember wad happened this past few days wen im not blogging. i cant remember ah. hehe. onli that yeah had a feastful dinner @ aunt emi house. yey~
ting aint going rite. lets jus say it tat way. tings aint happy @ all. we are jus two different characters. its like the total opposite. but tryin to hold on.
NOTE: there is no such thing as taking reggae too far.. u can say im taking it too far wen i don on a DREADLOCK stuck in a corner puffing ganjah stoning away to reggae music. that u can ask me to stop. but freaking music? and ure telling me im taking reggae shit too far? and im not reggae enuff? so wad is reggae? ure suppose to have dreadlocks and those casual clothing?
Loving reggae and following reggae is different. there is no such ting in taking reggae too far. its all about the love and heart for it. in malay JIWA. so dun tell sumone he or she taking sumtin he or she love too far. in this case I LOVE REGGAE and no one will ever tell me to stop. cause it doesnt matter wad u all tink. aite~
peace out
Carve your wrist and spell out my name D.E.V.I.L
Y 10/24/2004 01:36:00 PM
Thursday, October 21, 2004
...dum dee dum ~burp! wooo had my dinner oweadi! nicey man. very spicy meal todae. woo nice but spicy. *ouch*
suppose to hang out with the people todae. but i too tired oreadi. so mesej everyone and agreed to stay in. woo~ \/i rock.
met afiq skin yesternite. hang out pretty late with Farz Doink Nadz Shiela and AfiQ. and then Nadia belanja Neoprint and also Long John Silver. wooo nice day man! wooo.
i lazy to blog. i miss sumone but i dunno hu.. issit him.. or issit her.. or issit you.. or issit them? dammit i duno.
im out.
Carve your wrist and spell out my name D.E.V.I.L
Y 10/21/2004 07:40:00 PM
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
...damn why are some people jus plain stoopid. nehmind. stupidity rules the world. its okie. im fasting. damn stomach so pain sia. *alasan* haha~ but i am fasting.
whole jammed packed of BELO-NESS and LAUGHTER yesternite till wee morning with AidiL and iSiS Shida. irritain mudda tunas arh they both. *grrr* corrupts my mind with sick sick stuff and also make me luff so much i wish i wud jus be born a laughing machine so i dun haffta use my energy to luff. haha. a self-declared "Man Of Stupidity" AidiL. LoLx. a nite never forgotten. stoopid shits. till 6 in da moning.. 6 in da moning.. hehe~
head banging myself to some alicia keys feat mr HOT himself Usher : if aint got u (remix) damn. vocals are superb. hmmm..
baby boooo my baby boooo
its raining here. so dark and so chilly. damn nice weather to chill at home and to top of all those fasting periods. woohooo \/ god is fair. *smiles*
my love life sucks. yeah pretty much sucky. well it always been like tat. never been better. but i got my baby gyaL(s) staying by me. my friends. my sweethearts. my family. all of them~ they make me rise and smile. tanks.
i still love me. and hope mister loves me.
Carve your wrist and spell out my name D.E.V.I.L
Y 10/20/2004 05:41:00 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2004
why he never call me. said he will. promised me he will. but phone was silent all thru the nite. till the onli sound was my sister snoring away. snore of hardwork in the day. *giggles*
heaty heaty argument in the net. whoa. the tension was like 99% close to boiling point. the much hatred was finally let off. leaving more hatred for each other. it aint suppose to be tis way. where's the one love? where's the get over it motto? wads happening. make love not war. still stuck in between. the lady seeking me advises. the mister telling me that he cant be bothered. im lost. as i sae cut me pls.. anione?
to drown my sorrow of wad's happening with two of my loved ones. he smsed me. at last sayin he's awake. i made the move first. am i drifting back into square one. got loved. got hurt. got dumped. i dun wanna it to be tat way. dammit. no way. not meeting him again todae. cause plans aren't working the proper way. we jus got no time for each other. well i do. he dont.
gonna go auntie house todae. prolly having the meals at her crib. been sometime since ive been there. so yeah prolly going there. i pray that tomoro will be a day out with my by. i miss him. he noes that. he told me does too. but nutin can be done. we rarely tok to. he busy feeling tired and dozing off. LoLx. being tough is wad im doing.
Argh wanna paint my shoes three symbolic colours of rasta. dammit. had an overview of it. the base black. and then stripes of yellow green red. awww awesome. asking Mon for help. Pwease pwease. hope he can.
fuck my life. im fasting and shits have to happen.
i love living me. i love being me.
Carve ur wrist and spell out my name D.E.V.I.L
Y 10/16/2004 01:50:00 PM
tinking: oreo cake.
dammit. sumtin bad happened. well its not my fault aniwae. she bound to find out.
yeah she found out. she's suicidal. and im lost. im not sure where i stand. in between her and the razor blade. sumbodi jus cut me up.
its hurts like thousands knives staked thru ur heart wen ur lover got a new girlfren like less than two weeks after breakups. i understand. but i cant do much. im lost again. im stuck again.
hot topping : major arguement with baby boo. about meet up. we just have no time for each other.
all stranded tinking of friend and baby boo. and im like a razor blade. dammit. i hate wen love surrounds me. its like im tied to a wheel. round and round. fuck.
i love my life.
good night shits.
Carve ur wrist and spell out my name D.E.V.I.L
Y 10/15/2004 10:58:00 PM
Gone Berserk on 15.10.04 @ 17.25pm
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AiDiL Da Usher-Wannabe + Clown
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...met the most kick ass kid.. haha jus made fren with him. Farz friend. Aidil. haha one joker. we were like luffing non-stop till like 12am in the morning. he is a total Craze man! so cute. he is 99.9% like Flex. we were like "macam flexx siak!!!!" ahaha. awww but he is nice to accompany us till so late. and yeah i noe i look like ur Bestfren Syanaz. stop it oreadi! haha! clown~
awww. saw Oprah Winfrey on da Star World. dammit. Usher was the guest. and *ouch* was he really really damn haaawttt. crazy! he have tis dimple fixed on his baby face and he was just BEAMING with so much CUTENESS.. i din realise he was tis cute till jus now. *sizzle* man.. how can people get tis cute! bless them... *slurp~* LoLx
was chilling wit tha peeps yesterdae. was a really long time. i miss all my mates. yessa. had fun. and nadz tanks for the biscuit yesterdae a'aite. hehe appreciate all tat! woo.
Baby sis came home with Zakfran yesterdae. chilled out with him. tanks dude for tha ciggies. and the Raspberry Drink eventho it sux but tanks.
its the month of Fasting. but im not hungry or thirsty. im bored. freaking bored. cant even go out. haha well first day. step baik dok rumah arh soi~ haha.
argh i wanna change my blog song but i forgot everythin. my password and everything. F**K. hate it wen tis happens. dammit. wooo sorted out my songs really good. so everything organized. hehe
Mommy cooking mee hongkong todae. *slurp~*
i miss my baby. he quarelled with me yesterdae. it was my fault. i went out without telling him. he did remind me to tell him. so he got pretty peef-ed. but okie lar work tings out. but then din get to tok to him. he went zzz-ing. cant blame him. he's working so i gotta be understanding aite. yeah i miss him. cant meet him tomoro again! cause mommy going auntie house to Buka. so prolly sunday. i miss u man since the last time we met. Shiela met Zakfran twice oreadi since they together. we onli ONCE! argh! haha
im tired. prolly blog another time. its so boring to blog long entries now. hehe okie..
-=Poof=-
The Collabo Of Two Hearts.
Y 10/15/2004 05:25:00 PM
Thursday, October 14, 2004
.i love chocolate. mmmm nice. who doesnt love chocs. i do~ the onli person i noe doesnt is Mika. haha she losing out shits man.~ yummy!*schmzack*
well went out jus now wit mum and dad. sent baby sis to work. jus got back home. prolly going out again. meeting the Dome fam. i miss them awww!
whooooooo Shiela found her lover at last!!!! arghh so excited for her. was a day out with her and friends. and tat lucky guy. awwww they hit it off soon!!!!!!! proud of u k baby.
ZAKFRAN jaga dia baik baik ehh! hehe
kk i gtg. need to go get ready. need to meet the guys now. update later.
and yeah i love my by. our birthday for the first time.. a day before and after each other. his 23rd Sep and im 22nd Sep.. hehe i love u faizal~
-=Poof=-
Begining of happiness~
Y 10/14/2004 04:23:00 PM
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
...*skank skank* yawn~ wad sia i skank away. woke up todae. shiela not home. went to meet mommy to have her medical checkup for work. *congrats*.
woke up clean the house. while OASIS musika blasting on ma hi-5. was washing the dishes. i feel sooo like Cinderella. once a while have that kinda feeling.. make u feel so belong. *warmth* ahh. LOLX crazy.
going out to meet kiwin todae mebe. and with shiela and Zakky franny mebe. haha. wad a name i gave him. mebe. meet at 6.30 aniwae so still lotsa time. and yeah Kiwin baby... we are all here for u k hunny~ dun worry.
im bored. and im so tired. and its raining. and i miss by. hehe
tok to by yesterdae. haha. luff my ass out. he was soooo frustrated with me cause was tinking wen to meet me and i was playing around. haha! aww but he did the I LOVE U tinggy first. i had never go thru a relationship where the guys said I LOVE U to me... its always me. and now i noe how it feels wen sumone said he loves u.. *its nice*.. awww. and i miss him so. hope can meet him soon. *huggies*
tok to Skim friend yesterdae. hahah fark. i burst my tummy to all his LAME AS FARK jokes. really lame but funny! jus like the SpongeBob Squarepants show. stoopid but funny. wad a bliss. haha! woo. i love Lame Jokes...by lamers...
yey put my Happy Song. woo. im out.
-=Poof=-
Missus Loves Mister.
Y 10/13/2004 03:38:00 PM
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
...rally round the flag.. rally round the flag.. *skank skank* my happy song.. i hear tis song to be happy. *wink at Jah Cure*~
Jah Cure got back his internet connection. wooo at least can chat with him. hahai~ troublesome la that mamat. ask me dcc him songs. wah seh i REALLY hate sending songs. summore his pc so slow. fuck. hehe but sayang nyer pasal. he is my rasta boi once. so yeah send him aniwae. his happy song is Monkey Man by The Specials. haha~
well todae mum made me make two trips to the shop. wah kaoz. back to back. nvm nvm. got my exercise already aniwae. haha! hate it. sux. nvm~
been two days since last saw my baby. miss him. hehe *huggies* called me yesterdae to share some stories wit me. i love him~ haha. *huggies*
okie i hate blogging. so mahlust. nehmind. bye~
-=Poof=-
Rally Rally Rally Rally.
Y 10/12/2004 07:57:00 PM
Gone Berserk on 11.10.04 @ 16.37pm
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Overdosage of ReGGae
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...tats it! im too overdosed and pamperedly fed with high dosage of reggae. haha. *sigh* and im suffering from stay-away-from-reggae-for-a-week kinda sicknes. please no more reggae blasting in my ear or i cud jus jump down and die. LoLx~!
went to catch Bushmen @ Esplanade. was a day out with my By. but then force him LIKE HELL sia to follow me. was complaining at first but then.. the missus always gets the way. was whole lotta fun..woo~ din actually skank but then the excitement was awesome! *applause and HAIL bushmen*
went to meet shiela..zurah..fir and russ after tat. was late but still went. reached about 10+ pm and they were waiting for me already. haha. well By send me there. told him to go home but he still insist of sending me. awww Mwaks. tanks for accompanying me~ then we head down to Hard Rock after that. me zurah and shiela and russ too. the lads went home. due to work. haha~ Had fun there. skank the nite away. had a mini chat with Hassan and he kissed me cheeks. awww and then he went to perform. Met Flexx and skank around with him. he is such a good skanker. haha~ and Nizam Gelap was there too. Been a whole long time since i step into HRC. miss those time. ohhh and JAH CURE was there. too~! *shrieks* ngan penuh smangat member skank! haha~!
meet a lot of people tat i miss so far at esplanade. Dreadman was there. awww he miss me.. i miss him too. but he got a gal. sweet young lady. hehe and then met Hadi oso. all the reggae freaks came and i mish them!!!! haha. awww *huggies* all of them.
buffalo soldier.. dreadlock rasta.. alalala~
im tired. prolly gonna go rest. and i dunno wad to blog animore. pretty peef up with blogging oreadi. hehe. tanks Laughing Monster Zarian teach me how to put vid but still a failure. haha~
im out. one love rasta~!
-=Poof=-
Loving her mister.
Y 10/11/2004 04:36:00 PM
Saturday, October 09, 2004
skank...skank... yeah yeah... helllo~! wooooooo.. im mad. mad about skanking. *skank skank*
well went to catch Bushmen @ Esplanade. arghhh freaking me out sia. i came with bella and Qin Jenny and Liyah was already there so jus went there and sit with them. sooo freaking happening the gig. argh. haha and then skank skank. all the cultures.. skins..rudies.. all skanking away.~
then met up with Jasni. said hi to Hassan the bassist. miss him sia! *huggies* got a time out hanging with them wen on my way home. the drummer is FREAKING cute la. haha first time got to tok to him. haha~ nice guy. in all it was a freaking fun fun nite! woo..
got back around 1 plus in the morning. realise tat ive been coming home late tis days.. yey~
tomoro going to Hrc with shiela. yey.. haha~
i lazee to update realli. all i wan is to listen to some reggae shit and dope my way away on da bed. woooo...
stirrr iittt uppp.... lil darling.. stirr itt uppp..wooo
-=Poof=-
One Love Rasta.
Y 10/09/2004 03:11:00 PM
Thursday, October 07, 2004
hey hey hey~ waddap~ yux sound so hip-hoppish.. haha aniwae my keyboard played me out agian.. so fuck my keyboard up..(tat is changing its battery k!) and then its back to normal. i can type as fast as i want! wooo~ tanks factories for making expensive battteries. got mine for 2.50/- fuck.
well went to meet Biggy Bear yesterdae. was waiting for him at the bus stop. so went to Pasir Ris with him to chill out. tok stuff and well awww he is sweet. being there for me and stuff. well im lonely sumtimes. *smiles* yeah got back home at 1.30 morning. haha~ bah~
todae went to meet mommy after her work. woke up late. so took a cab down. scared she leave already. haha. so yeah she's still there waiting. went home again cause my pants got white dirty stuff tat jus wont freaking bug off. so went home and went to meet them again at CWP. went around CWP searcing for my sandals. got them. yey.
Tomoro is Bushmen gig. going with Jenny seh! besh seh. Bella gonna be there too! i love Bushmen. mebe can see Hassan again. miss tat guy! hahaah! stoopid.. wooo i WANNA SKANK so baddd!!! hahah too bad iQin say prolly she not going if not can SKANK with her. argh! miss skanking so much.
Read Reny blog. wad she said was true. miss those shit days. where we will always club and then we slack at Esplanade till weee morning. where she come to my house every Wednesday/Thursday and then we go clubbing together. we as a group. awww miss those times. and then on other days we will slack at Town..far east.. and then chit chat till weee morning. awww so miss them. can never replace the friendship i had with them. but now its all silent. but we noe we miss each other.. :) *huggies*
dumm deee dummm boo~.. i lazee to blog. I miss Bella. where r u.
-=Poof-=
Shut Up Just Shut Up.
Y 10/07/2004 08:55:00 PM
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
...i got the date all mix up and also the month. apparently in one of my report stuff i did i wrote down.. 08/11/04 ... well at least im ahead of time.. not back dated. shit. im so so freaking screwed. hu cares. heck. bah~
so sweet of fatah messaging me wanna treat me to movie. awww tats so sweet of him. he is my best buddy. he call me bitch i call him mudafucker. haha we click so well. well at least we noe that we are not falling for each other will do. cause after all.. we are good friends. he is there wen i need comfort. Seriously. i love fatah but for some reason we are not meant. so he will always be my Big Egoistic and close buddy~ haha *psst he is so FUCKING egoistic* wonder how many girls can tahan him.
well been blasting Oasis song still. so into indie slow songs. well Kim gave me some songs too. it was superb. malay tho. but still.. its so mind relaxing and soul catching. will bring u to daze. gotta try it. ^_^
meet Whizzers aka Bob yesternite. was alrite. had a small chit chat here and there. cig and stuff. till he gotta go. he is nice. accompany me thru the nite. *huggies* tanks dear.
jus came back home going out wit mummy and baby sis. Congrats to her for promoted to Full Time at her workplace. guess hard work pays off aite? orite.. she's off todae.. suppose to bring her to the movies tonite but then.. im going out so nex time ya sweetie?
gotta meet Big Bear tonite. yey he fetching me. nice of him. well im totally over Bear. irresponsible brat. but i got my new Big Bear. never realise he was there till i was having a break down the other time. well he knew i need sumone. and i hope i chose the rite one. rite now its nutin serious. jus companion. wish me lucj *fingers cross*
gotta go get ready. aww im always late.. haha so update again later.. tata!
-=Poof=-
Say What You Need And Be On Your Way.
Y 10/06/2004 06:39:00 PM
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
hey there.. finally got a bit of mood to blog. so yeah. blogging shits starting from..now.
blasting Oasis songs since last week on my player. nice soft slow indie music gets my adrenaline rushing and ease my typhoon mind. nice old songs.
been bad these few days. relationship wise and also fate. been unlucky on most days. and with Bear stuff getting shaky. its different. been busy and no time for each other. mebe wad i expect was rite. i can never have a relationship tat last long. not for now i hope. its either me hu spoils the whole ting. or him. so yeah prolly falling back to my original emo land. where im single and surrounded by nice and comforting fairies , my friends...
yesterdae met Ah-Yee.. nice lad. tok and do nutin. later on Nadz Farz and iSiS Shida joined us. it was a nite full of laughter. and talkative moment by Nadz. oh my.. i suffered migraines wen i got home.. dammit. all cause of them. my tummy aches. even Ayie called me up and told me tat.LoL
tats us.. the laughing clan.
Had a nice discussion with Shida and the girls. yeah its was a heaty discussion but. couldnt believe all tat happened yeah? tats it. bastards will always be bastards. and they make us hate them.. wads happening.. haiz..
mommy been really supportive towards me. and dad too. she's trying her best to gimme the love that i needed. told her wad happened. to me on tat unfateful nite. and yeah she got really angry but then she tok to me. and i noe i love her. she said to me tat wadever she gonna say is the same song tat i always told her about. and i smiled. the first time someone gave me the love tat i really needed. never knew it cud come from my mom. i love her.
but one ting i learned tat. wad ever happens. regardless wether its big or small. dun sit and cry. get urself together and try.... again... u will feel crap but once u get hold of ur life and u control it.. u are the QUEEN. *smiles*
-=Poof=-
Stop Crying Your Heart Out. I love my friends.
Y 10/05/2004 03:06:00 PM
Gone Berserk on 04.11.04 @ 17.35pm
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Fell into the wrong hands
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...fuck up nite. i had the most fucking shit experience yesternite. i hate everyone. fuck!
went to meet Bear jus now. drove around with him. miss him so much. so yeah spent the afternoon with him.
i got no mood to blog. im fucking pissed and fucking irritated.
Special tanks to people hu tried to cheer me up during the Unfateful nite.
Zarian my luffing monster. he is the first person.
Kimmy
iQin Skanky
Fatah tryin to make me smile.
Shammy~
tanks guys.
Y 10/04/2004 05:34:00 PM
Saturday, October 02, 2004
..i miss him but yet i din get to meet him. dunno issit coincidence he have sumtin else to do or issit he jus dun wanna meet. i realli dunno. two days straight of promises and then he break it. ahh now i noe wad it feels like. its not hurting but its not satisfying too. sumtin missing wen u have tis kinda feeling. i got no mood. and the worst part.. i dunno where to go out to todae. and its saturdae. lucki din promise my fren i go esplanade with them..nvm~hope he can make it up another day. *two days* -sigh-
well do noting since jus now. had my breakfast + lunch. yum~ had chicken rice. yeah yummie..
changed my blog song to sometin really cute. find it cute tho. hehe yey~
argh i realli miss him la. he got some stuff he is doing. for the first time i miss sumone so bad. *sad* too bad cant meet him todae.
mebe fetching baby sis again from work at 3am. dad wanna go fetch her. so yeah prolly doing tat. suppose to go to yishun Dam and chill with Fiz but then he need to go send some stuff to his aunt so yeah cancel the whole plan. so here i am stuck at home.
suppose to go out with Jenny.iQin and jenny fwen and also Kirin. but then lazee. was suppose to go catch Wicked Aura Batucada busking todae at Taka orchard. mahlust lak~ well tanks "dushtak" for his kind invitation. haha~
fuck no plans. fuck fuck. no dome no esplanade no meet up no notin! argh.
-=Poof=-
Psst to Doink..tanks for sharing.. and hope everythin is well~ *smile,wink*
Dangerously Emotional.
Y 10/02/2004 04:59:00 PM
Gone Berserk on 02.10.04 @ 1.10am
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Soft Touch..Pleasing
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wah my leg cramp like Fook~ haha dunno why. hehe. dun ask why. eventho u dun wanna ask. dun tink why. and dun tink we i ask u not to tink. STOP TINKING! okie im mad.
*yawn* had a mini tiff wit Bear. so yeah. nvm later can make up. haha! *smuacks*
went out to meet Fizzy jus now. rode in his van. wooo~ sejuk gilaaaa~ haha went to Pasir Ris. it was fun. yey chat about Drum and Bass. and reggae to hiphop to erm..i oso dunno wad. haha~ the breeze was freaking chilly! argh~ haha my hands were so freaking cold. haha
tanks sweet for the cigs aniwae. Texas 5 yux but aniwae.. haha~
psst: cute guy. aww *wink @ Nadz*
LoLx
met up the Dome peeps. yeah HIPHOP non stop. *roll eyes @ Kimmy* haha. and Please Kim im not a HIPHOPPER so stop going Yo Yo Nigga to me in msn okie. haha~ kimmy is a guy aniwae got long hair like trans. haha he is so freaking cute. nice guy. funny but dumb~ yeah hung out wit the lads and ladies. pretty fun. but aiyar. nvm. haha so tired.
Doink gave me an irritatin song. DAMN irritatin song. its called ASS AND TITIES. so fuck yeah u can imagine the guy going "ass and tities" all the way. tats is freaking irritatin. haah~ LoLx. sick.
im sleepy and im tired and im beat. shiela not back home yet. she werking till 3am. so gotta wait up for her. *yawn* im tired! argh! haha. wonder is tat guy even fetching her? hmmm *wicked aura all the way* LoLx. shhhhh~
i wanna sleep and proceed to dream land where i dream of a place where CHeese is ban. and there is no tings call skool and exams. where i jus sleep and money come pouring in. fuck. fat hope.
Tanks kiwin for mentioning me in her blog. mwaks!
-=Poof=-
I love mister bear <3
Y 10/02/2004 01:09:00 AM
